Negative Captain

Ok so last nights was negative...now I'll just wait for AF to show. Eh no biggie.
I realized that I can't be worrying about this every time it's just not good for me.

I am ok with waiting until January to start trying...now if Mr. B backs down well World War III will be on...no for realzzzz it will be.

But to be honest it's better that I'm not pregnant this month since we have DC and Kellie coming in next month. We'll be in the Qtr for 2 days until they come up and experience tailgating at it's finest. And yes I could still have fun with them but they'd be on their own a lot in the Qtr because a lot of bars are just too smokey.

Now it can happen anytime after that though haha.

Mr. B's Bday is coming up. Oct 23rd. I was thinking about getting him an LSU print since they have a new store for that and maybe another shirt. But that doesn't seem so fun.

I truly can't believe it's about to be October already. Where did this year go seriously? It feels just like yesterday we were ringing in the new year, and then in Europe, and then I was turning 25 gasp! and football season is already and I'll be preparing for my grandparents visit before we know it.

Well I worked out last night. I did a really high resistance so I only did 2.75 miles however I burned 425 calories so I say that's a success. I mean calories are what really matter anyways.

I'm still steady at 172.5ish because of this past weekend. But I'll be working out tonight and then Friday so I'm hoping it will get better. I need to start lifting some weights as well.

Well we don't have to help Uncle Kevin and Aunt Jen move this weekend so we'll be heading to the P's house for the GA game. I'm happy. That means a little sleeping in on Saturday and then being local.

However Uncle Kevin and Aunt Jen are going to the rodeo on Sunday...and I don't mean the normal one. The Angola Prison Rodeo. Where the prisoners try and get chips off of the bulls to get money...they also sell stuff they've made all year.

And I do want to go but just not this Sunday...but if Mr. B wants to go I have to oblige because he did let me do what I wanted last weekend.

I am starving and I know I should eat something small to get my metabolism going. This morning I had a pineapple smoothie and a mini Juicy Juice box. But I'm afraid I won't have enough for lunch even though I packed for lunch...eh it'll be ok.

Day 40...schmorty

Well I called the doc and of course they lady said she'd need a nurse to call me back.
I was in the middle of explaining things to her when she blurts out "are you pregnant" I'm like ugghh no I doubt it because my body just likes to be difficult.

Anyways a nurse calls back 2 hours later le sigh and says "well there are many reasons why your period could be late however she could only give me stress....seriously I'm not stressed at all...I wasn't last month and only began thinking I could be pregnant at about Day 32.

So here we are Day 40 with no signs of AF. I took that test and it was negative so she thinks that I'm not and I think that too.

I told her I was worried something was going on with my body being I was a 28 day er all day long even down to the same time.

But she said well the only thing that would regulate that is BC. I told her no. I got off of it 7 months ago because of no sex drive and now we're finally having a better time of it and it's silly to start now knowing that Mr. B said the beginning of the year would be looking good.

So I told her well if its not big bad thing I'll just suck it up for the next couple of months.

She did say that I should come in to get my hormones checked before or right around when we're TTC just so we know where I stand because the only time they get worried is when people are TTC and have cycles like mine...hmm okkkkk

So she wants me to take another test tonight just to make sure. If it's negative give them a call in a couple of months and well if it's positive then call tomorrow haha.


So there we have it. A big fat bag of no advice...boy I love that.

To Be...

completely honest. I haven't really even been thinking about the possibility of being pregnant...now I'm just starting to worry about my body.

I took a test on oh Wednesday or Thursday and it was negative which I thought it was.

Today is Day 39 in my cycle le sigh...I was really hoping it would be lower and adjusting itself eventually back down to 28 or heck at least in between 28 and 32.

So tomorrow if no signs of her I'm calling my doctor and talking to a nurse about what could possibly be happening. I missed my yearly due to the craziness of life and switching insurances etc but I guess maybe I should schedule that when I call.

Whatever is all I have to say haha

Well you guessed it...

Still no AF...
Today marks day 34. While I was working I was feeling crampy and just bleh like I normally due right when AF shows up.

But when I went to the bathroom no signs of her. Not sure what this means really. Maybe she'll show later today or I guess it could be pregnancy cramping...I know some girls who've experienced that le sigh

I was going to go buy a test today (at least that's what I told myself) but I'm just not believing it could really be positive so I don't want to.

I just feel like getting Raising Cane's which should tell me AF is on her way however it's dark and gloomy outside and I want some Sweet Tea haha.....and this all stemmed from a caller calling someone asking for that exact thing.

I'm really hoping to meet up this weekend with some of my fellow May Knotties!!! J is in town since her husband has some business in NOLA and T is driving down from Lafayette and S is coming too!

But it's just that's a long drive and the LSU game is on at 11:30am bleh

I think I may just come Mr. B unless he wants to come or at least go to his cousins to watch the game for sure since I'm still trying to figure out a place that serves food and would have the game on.

Maybe this could be picture taking session take 2 haha

Well work has actually been busy for me this week whoot!

I worked out last night. I did like 2.75 miles and burned a little over 300 calories I think...I could tell that I was tired from not working out in 3 days. So I now have to work out on Monday's instead of Tuesdays.

I think Mon, Wed, Fri will work better for me anyways...but since I didn't do that I'm taking today off and then going full throttle tomorrow and Friday.

To get to 8.5 miles I'm going to have to do about 2.75 each day which isn't too bad. My goal is to do 8 but I know that I'm going to have to up it each time and eventually just add in a 4th day.

I'm down about 2 lbs which I'm waiting now for it to really drop and get me under 170...I guess before I thought I was 172 but really I was closer to 175 haha boo

Oh well I'm feeling better and that's what matters. Baby Steps.

Ok my stomach is punching itself because it's so hungry.

Crazy Strikes Back

So Crazie K or Psycho K (can't remember how I addressed her in my last post haha) emailed me!!!! This lady never does that.

She went on and on about Uncle Jamie's son and the text messages and how Uncle Jamie left her in BR gasp! the horror...how apparently he demanded the ring back (lie) and how he also told her how we felt about her when they first broke up. I'm not very happy with him about that and I have a feeling he told her that in an argument.

But you know I never did really talk bad bad about her. Mainly how she was a little unstable and how she would cry at the bar for hours over having kids. That's what most of it was about.

She said she used to have fun until she knew she was the outcast. Well honey nobody made you that. Nobody even made you that the second time around but you have issues that you're not willing to deal with and until you do your life will forever be in shambles.

And how even when her mother called Uncle J didn't care...umm no I was sitting right next to him when she called and all she said was she didn't understand her own daughter and how she WASN'T coming to pick her up for acting like a fool.

And how she had to roam LSU's campus until someone came to get her. Well it's not that bad for crying out loud it was 6pm. And how he wouldn't give her her purse. That's because where we were and where they were parked were on opposite ends and this all could've been prevented had she not freaked out like always.

And how she hopes that nobody ever does that to Uncle J's daughter or our future daughter.

I'm like seriously...seriously. Most times you freak out and don't even talk to me and now you want me to feel bad for saying what I said when you guys were broken up.

It would be one thing if I said oh she was such a bitch and I hate her. But I didn't...never would and even after this time Mr. B said he had lost respect for her but I just said "that's wrong Uncle J even if she's hurt that's wrong".

I'm not stupid....so don't treat me like I am. I know she most likely wants me to go back to Uncle J about this...but I'm not...at least not for now.

Mr. B told me to say I wish you all the best and leave it at that...because I know if I even say well this is what I said back in the day (which was over a year ago people) it would turn into more then that.

So I think I'm just going to say I'm sorry that everything happened...I didn't even know what was going on since you guys were off talking about it. I hope everything works out and I wish you the best...and be done with it.

And hopefully she's truly out of the picture because she to me is Bi-Polar and Manic and until she realizes she has issues and gets help she'll forever be making Uncle J miserable.

Still no AF. bleh

WTF

Is what I'm saying because yet again my period is nowhere to be found. Now I'm figuring that with my crazy ass thing last month (40 day cycle) that it's most likely just trying to get back in the swing of things...or who knows maybe once I hit 25 my body was like yah "umm yah we don't really like the 28 day cycle and we want to change it kthxbai"

Currently I'm on day 32....with no signs of AF roaring her pretty little head off...but I'm not thinking that I'm KU'd because well I don't want to get my hopes up....

So if I don't get it by oh Wednesday I'll take a Dollar Tree test and see. But until then I'm not going to go to all of the cutesy wootsy sites I always do and get excited.

Last time I waited until about this time to tell Mr. B but I'm not even going to do that because I don't need to go through the emotional roller coaster of him rubbing my belly and asking questions and wanting to be there for every test just to be let down with she shows.

Anyways we had fun tailgating this weekend..... Psycho K showed her ass as usual. I knew it was too good to be true. She was entirely too nice and happy the week before and I knew she couldn't make it two weeks in a row acting like a normal person. But this week she got shit in her head and gave back Uncle Jamie's ring and texted him and told him she never liked the ring when it wasn't even the original he proposed to her in because she didn't like that one and CHOSE the ring she then told him she didn't like. She was being ruthless and hurtful for no reason!

Yesterday I woke up thinking that I might possibly getting sick. I pretty much napped the entire day and was still able to fall asleep fairly quickly after drinking some Thera Flu. I didn't even want to get up this morning! I'm just feeling a little blah today. It seems like things are draining but no real sore throat so that's good. But it doesn't feel like sinuses either.

Well LSU won again. They have a lot of work to do if they think they're going to beat either OIe Miss, Alabama, or Florida. I am willing to take a loss to 2 of those teams but not all 3.

But you don't understand how tickled pink I was to hear that Washington beat USC. That just helped our win over them skyrocket and officially dropped those pansies out of the top 10 whoot.

Been A Bit...

too long!

I can't believe it's been a whole week. I need to get my act together.

Well my grandma officially has Congestive Heart Failure. They've already had to lower her cumadin once.

My nosey aunt left me a FB message saying that she would be available tomorrow if I wanted to chat (with my grandma that is)

So I call and I'm chatting to my other aunt and my grandma yells in the background "Didn't you know your GG was on deaths door and you didn't even call" I told my aunt I did the day she was put into the hospital after they told her she had CHF!!!!

I then got on the phone with her and was like "dude I talked to you for a good 10 minutes and then talked to grandpa" haha she was like ooh it must have been the morphine...umm nice! haha

Well Mr. B's boss was like ooh no our big boss is on a rampage. Well the boss had a conference call and then Mr. B had a separate conference call. The bosses they all got yelled at because it's their area that's really struggling (all over the country) but Mr. B and the other sales guys didn't get yelled at because they know they're trying.

They did say people could be laid off though.
Well the big boss called every sales guy and he called Mr. B last night and said that he shouldn't worry worry and that Mr. B's area actually is the most profitable out of the country and he didn't want Mr. B getting worried and jumping ship.

Now I know that's great and all but I think Mr. B should be proactive and if he can find a great job not traveling and worried what his commission will be like this month I say he should. I searched for jobs and found 2 that he is qualified for and in the price range of what he was making last year when times were really f'n good!!!!

Well my good friend Auntie Heather's husband texted me on the sly and said he had 4 tickets to the Chicago Bears vs Detroit Lions game for Sunday October 4th and he'd love for Mr. B and I to come up. If this was last year I would've booked the tickets and then told Mr. B but we have to be careful with what we're doing. Now I should say that we are doing well. I mean we've been very smart with saving and paying off debt. I freak out when our checking dips below a certain number (that I have to say back 5 years ago I would've thought was huuuge) and freak when I need to pull 500 from our savings because that's taking out of our savings (which really I would've never imagined it being so great either) and thanks to Mr. B having a fantastic year last year we were able to bank a lot while spending 8k of our own money for the wedding....hindsight really bites you in the ass.

I just think I should've had that beach wedding my grandpa said to have and took the extra 5k he was willing to dish and then I would've had a beautiful wedding and 5k well no I would've had 13k because we wouldn't have spent the 8k. But you know it would've went somewhere else I'm sure. haha maybe to giving my grandpa that in cash for my car and not owing so much. But anyways whatever.

So I really really want to go! The cheapest airfare I've found is 320 for both of us and yes that normally would be a good deal but you have to think that's 320 (if we do fri-mon) hotel (even if we split with them) you know us and how we like to drink and eat so this easily turns into 800+ for a couple of days.

I thought it would be cook to invite Auntie Katti and Uncle Dave up too though to hang out. I don't know...Now Uncle Eric is saying what if we paid for the hotel...and it's not that really it's not because I can name our own price and get a good deal with splitting.

I'm going to talk to Mr. B in person tomorrow and see how he feels. I mean it really works out since it's an away game week anyways.

I will be getting my bonus in October. Most likely the week after we'd go (which isn't a big deal) and we could use that money but I really really had my heart set on buying a new guest bedroom set before my grandparents come with that money. Mr. B keeps saying how we need to buy a nice set for like 1k but my whole thing is we're not buying a new bed frame or anything like that just dresser and Armoire or something that nobody ever uses because we don't have guests THAT often. So my bonus of 500ish is perfect. I've scoped out a set with Walmart and Target.

But that could be used for Chicago. I've always wanted to go to a Bears game because hey that would be fun and I honestly really love Chicago.

le sigh

I'm torn.

Anyways we had our first tailgating and LSU game of the season this past Saturday and it farking rained the entire time.

Tailgating was fine because we have a big enough tent but the game it rained for about 3.5 quarters and my "water resistant" jacket couldn't take it and actually soaked through and ruined my phone for the night but luckily that sucker is back to normal because I didn't get insurance now that it's becoming a crock of shit to have it anyways. But it was my beloved Versa Touch and I didn't want to part with greatness.
And Uncle Kevin and Auntie Jen couldn't make it because Auntie Jen had the viral form of H1N1 and Uncle Kenny, Uncle Andy, Auntie Sunny, and Auntie Toni were all so hungover that they didn't want to trek out.

But it's not supposed to rain and even though Auntie Jen had a relapse yesterday (I'm sure she'll be fine by Saturday...if not Uncle Kevin said he's coming without her) so they'll be there so I'm thinking of making jello shots. I really want to get the medical shot thingies but don't feel like going to a medical supply store to look haha. But I should. But I have mini cups so it would work just fine.

Anyways this has turned into a ridiculously long post since I waited a week. Next time I won't wait so long.

Oh I kicked ass first week into my fantasy league too...thank goodness Tony Romo had a great game.

Oh if my body got back to the 28 day schedule I was supposed to start my period yesterday but it could be today as well...however I don't feel like I'm getting it. We didn't get to have much sex because Mr. B was sick so who knows.

It may just take some time to get back to 28 days after having the 40 or maybe my body will be adjusting and won't go back to a 28 day but I surely hope its sooner then 40.

We'll see.

Please Say a Little Prayer

My grandma most likely has Congestive Heart Failure. She will be 70 this November. I know that you can live with (and both of her parents got it but not until they were in their 80's) but her lifestyle is terrible. She's a smoker (in hiding so she doesn't do it as much thank goodness), and the way she eats honestly makes me grossed out.

She's always struggled with weight. And she is overweight...actually her BMI would be considered obese although she puts herself together nicely so you don't look at her like that.

But thankfully my grandparents go to Mayo clinic for everything. They just happened to be up there for her physical which she almost put off until after their cruise because she had to miss her original one due to my aunt moving back to the states.

They were going on a 10 day Mediterranean cruise in like 2 weeks!!!!

Her heart rate was at about 170 so they admitted her and quickly realized what was going on with her. She had about 15 lbs of water that she couldn't get rid of and had this hellacious cough that most doctors would've thought was a cold. But really it was the fluid in her lungs that she couldn't get rid of.

Of course her heart is enlarged and not able to work like it should with her weight but the top part is working overtime while the bottom isn't getting what it needs.

So first goal is to get the fluid gone.

Second goal will be blood thinner of course...which they are going to put her on Cumadin sp? a lady I work with has been having heart issues and was put on that and her diet is something strict.

She'll always be on cumadin now. I just can't see her changing her lifestyle. But you know I never see her drink water. It's always coffee with crap in it, or diet coke after another. No more shit really.

The doctor said they were so lucky they came in because she would've most likely suffered a stroke on that ship out at sea and I would've lost her I know it.

You see she's not just a grandmother to me she's like my mother. Both of my grandparents are actually....well like my parents. They were there for a lot of the years when my parents were selfish. Yes I lived with my mother but every chance I had I was gone with them. We did have a falling out for awhile because they coddled my father even when he was nasty to me and I couldn't take it anymore.

But one day I thought you know I'll make small talk with him if that means I get my entire family back. And I know my grandparents are sad for not sticking up for the child more. They tell me all of the time how proud they are and how much they love me. I'm so very glad that Mr. B and I took that trip to NYC with just my grandparents last year. That is truly something I'll never forget.

And it wasn't about them visiting us and us doing something together we all flew and met up and took a real vacation. Something that their kids can't even say.

They are still planning on coming for Thanksgiving/Birthday I'll just have to make a few dishes that are healthier for her.

I started to think about my children never getting to meet their Great Grandparents and that's what really broke my heart. I couldn't bare that. I mean they should at least live long enough that our first born is around 10 when they pass. If not older. I would love for them to meet all of my children.

ahhh I don't know...I think last night I tried not to think about it, but today the more I think about it the more of a mess I'm becoming.

It's so scary....and this is exactly why people need to take care of themselves. Things will happen and things are hereditary but you have to make choices.

I just can't lose her or them this early. I know the older you get the more people start to pass but they are the backbone of our family....

Anyways enough of the sappy stuff.
I worked out last night again! I'm really proud of myself. I wish I would've gone to the gym on Monday but I was so tired from the weekend that when we made it home I took a long nap and then Tuesday I made Gumbo...which we had again last night and will finish off tonight haha.

I busted my ass....the elliptical kept telling me to slow down in order to get an accurate heart rate haha.

I think I did like 2.65 miles and burned over 300 calories which is pretty darn good if you ask me.

Someone told me that you have to burn 1000 calories in order to lose a pound and since I'm going the gym tonight and tomorrow I'll make sure that I burn 1000 in the week which will equal 1 pound haha.

If this is the case it'll be a couple of months before I even reach my 1st and 2nd goal oy vey. I'm sure though I'll start to burn calories while sitting once I get with it more.

And eventually I'll try and add in a 4th day. But I'm proud of myself for sticking with it and can't weight (hah) for things to start feeling loose again.

I can't believe we're actually into football season now. I have to go find me a chair since we officially belong to a tailgate now. And Uncle Kevin and Auntie Jen maybe staying on Friday so that means tonight I'll have to sweep the house. We've been so busy and gone that my house is accumulating crap everywhere and I can't even stand it! haha

In lieu of

Football season starting and my LSU boys having their first game this coming Saturday I decided to change my layout to be a little more LSU inspired.

It won't air until 9:30 at night which sucks but hey it could be worse I could be on eastern time zone.

wah wah sick sick

That would be Mr. B

Friday night he started not feeling very well. So I went and got him some Dayquil and DayTime Thera Flu.

Saturday he woke up still not feeling well. He asked if his tonsils were swollen but heck I couldn't tell. Apparently they were because when we went to Uncle K and Aunt T's house Uncle K said "whoa that's how our daughters were before they took them out"

Well he suffered through but by Sunday he was a mess. He has soooo much mucus. You know the bigger Powerade bottles? Yah from Sunday night at bed until 7:30am yesterday morning he had filled half of it with mucus!!! Gross I know but amazing that the body was producing that much as well! When he went in the doc said I'm so surprised you're not drooling all over yourself.

So he called and actually made an appointment. He had a temp of 103.5 and they said he had Strep Tonsillitis. And I looked online just now to see pictures and it made me want to hurl. I don't know if Mr. B's look like that because I haven't looked.

Well he was prescribed omoxicillan and Oxycontin so he could actually sleep. We've had to keep checking his temps...they fluctuate. It was down to 99.9 yesterday afternoon when I came home to take care of him but it rose to 100.7ish last night (it always gets worse at night) of course he's super cold and I'm hot. So I slept in the living room (haven't changed the sheets in the one guest room since his parents who smoke slept there and the office's clock ticks far too loud) haha which I was fine with the couch but didn't get much sleep.

And at 7 for some reason Mr. B goes into the kitchen and turns on the damn garbage disposal~!!! I mean who does that?! I don't care if you're sick or not.

Well I called to check on him and he was doing so so. He thinks he maybe getting better but I have my doubts. She wanted him back tomorrow if it doesn't get better but now he's saying Thursday however he said if the fever didn't break and in my mind if it's still teetering on 100 that didn't break well enough and that means the infection is still there.

I know he doesn't want to go back because if it's not better they'll be taking those bad boys out however I rather it now then in a couple of weeks when he HAS to and it's football season which he doesn't want to miss...well he won't miss it but he wants to drink which he won't be able to do.

I'd just like to know if he's going to get better or not because this weekend I had plans to go to NOLA and finally take pictures with my new freaking camera since I still haven't or if I need to take care of Mr.B which I'm completely fine doing. No better time for a surgery then having an extra day to rest right?!

Well we shall see. But this week I'm supposedly ovulating however it seemed liked like I started on Saturday (not sure yet because I'm not charting and whatnot and it would've been an early month but it just kind of seemed like it) anyways of course Mr. B is in pain so he doesn't want to...le sigh this won't be the month. Oh well.

Anyways so the fantasy draft went great and the weekend was fun...although being over there makes me a more jealous person (because that's how everyone lives there and it was rubbing off on me) and I don't like that at all. It's amazing that some can "afford" it but hey not my place to judge.