Friday, May 27, 2011

Crazy Dream

Ok so for those of you who know me I have always said I have a strong feeling I'll have twins and think that it would be wonderful the next go round to have that happen and be done since that would definitely be it in Mr. B's mind haha

My father is adopted so I have no idea about his family other than I know for sure his mother had a girl first and then him but don't know if twins ran in her family or my biological grand father.

My father had 3 girls and a boy so who knows and I'm not sure if there are twins floating around on Mr. B's side or not but from what I grasped it's the woman that carries that or something...anyways yah

So last night I had a very very vivid dream that I remember to a T!

We were pregnant (don't know when and this was after we found out because we were getting our 8 week Ultrasound).

And there were two sacs....but both babies were in Sac A (this part is not true but the U/S Tech said that one sac is the mother's and one is the father's and whichever baby is in which will carry more features/personality traits of that parent)...and both were in Mr. B's. (but again we know that part isn't true) The part that can be true is two babies sharing one sac which generally not always means Identicals.

And this part couldn't happen at 8 weeks but she said both were BOYS!

Ok so I know I'm reading into this and I take some things with a grain of salt but I have a strange feeling this is all in connection to the reading even though she didn't mention twins and gave different months but just a little strange since I have NOT been thinking twins these past couple of weeks.

We'll see

Friday, May 20, 2011

The Baby Psychic Reading

Ok so I finally got my reading back from Cheri22 and here is what she said...

Ava Grace born on 11/4/2010
When it comes to your daughter they show her as someone who is always on task. Will always able to remain right where you need her. (This is totally my personality right here) I am seeing you both having similar ideas, and often enjoying to do things together that pique your interest.

Shes someone who is very mellow easy to get along with and is more than happy to just go along with the flow. (This was proven this past weekend where she sat and people watched for hours while everyone said "What a good baby") I do see her holding back a bit around new people and people that she does not know that well. A bit more quiet than she normally would be and would tend to not really offer much information about herself. (Already this is true. With Mr. B and I she talks a ton and she will around folks but it takes time..otherwise she's happy to sit and watch and smile) She does overall tends to be a bit more of a private person anyways so not really wanting to get involved in things like that.

When it comes to your daughter, she loves things that are requiring focus and attention. They show her loving gymnastics and being really good on the balance beam. (I am excited about this)
Shes always very much a girly girl and loves to interact with anything that really allows her "inner beauty queen" to come out. Always asking to play in your makeup, always wanting to wear tons of jewelry, always asking to have dress up clothes, barbies, dolls..etc. She can often convince her brothers to play tea party as long as she allows them to be dragons. (This will be interesting haha)

When it comes to career paths, they show her linked as a makeup artist. (I will be really interested to see if this happens)

When it comes to marriage I am seeing her closer to 26. They will have one girl and one boy of their own.



BOY - JUNE so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
When it comes to your son, things for him is always about "seeing is believing" he would much rather see everything with his own two eyes rather than someone just trying to explain something to him. Hes polite and friendly, very attractive at any age, and someone who is very confident in who he is as a person. Always wanting to be able to have the chance to learn and gets frustrated when someone wont allow him that opportunity. You will find that someone will think that they are doing your son a favor by trying to explain something to him, giving him as much detail as they possibly can, and trust me your son totally gets it, but he wants to see it for himself. Always wondering how the world works and would rather see it for himself.

He loves soccer, both to watch and to play and is often one of the faster kids on his team. Hes not always the best at scoring, but he has fun and he tries his best.

Hes always good with pushing for things to be done. Can be someone who is very much the type to lead people to the right direction, giving them the motivation to continue forward. always full of ideas, so if your ever stuck on something just give him the information and he can usually be fairly creative and provide you with the information you need to continue to move forward.

When it comes to career paths, they show your son linked to working in a sales field. being able to travel a bit with meeting with current clients. I get the impression that this is a "service" that they provide rather than him selling a product. (He would be a lot like Mr. B in that respect)

When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 25. They will have one girl and one boy of their own.


BOY - August so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
When it comes to your son, hes someone who is always going to be very physical. Always having a bit more of a stocky body style and always really interested in playing sports that are a bit more physical. Likes things like rugby, and football.. things that allow a bit more contact and more of a physical play.

Hes a bit more on the quiet side. Not really interested in sharing his feelings. He will tell you what he is thinking or how he is feeling based on trying to be very good with just stating the facts and always thinks that its obvious to everyone. You will find in school is often the one that really does not like it. Hes always going to be social but does not want to be stuck learning things that he finds to be useless. Sometimes just needs that gentle little push in finding things that make him excited about it. In high school is able to join the various teams (including wrestling) and to be able to remain on the team, he has to have good grades.

He loves anything that is linked to science and discovery and will always be interested in things like that when he is younger. You will find that he is always very observant, always getting right down to the ground to take a look at a grasshopper that someone just found.. or perhaps a worm.. Hes always good about just leaving things where he sees them rather than picking them up and moving them. When it comes to career paths, they show him working in law. I do see him having to goto court, and is usually defending someone. (Everything even sports sounds just like Mr. B...so Ava must be like me, and the "third child" will be like Mr. B...I guess the "2nd child" will be a mix)


When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 28. They will have one girl and one boy fo their own.


Very interesting!!!

So what's crazy is that potentially (and of course this is all in believing this stuff however her results are pretty spot on for the most part) I could potentially get pregnant the rest of this month and find out next month, or get pregnant next month, or it could be August, or for a June birth September, or for an August birth November...which is when for sure we said we'd probably really start trying.

I didn't ask her if the sequence was a for sure as far as if the June one came first or she just saw a June and she thinks its the next one but could be number 3.

I'm also interested to see if it will be two boys because in my family all the women go girl, boy, girl, boy etc.

Only the men have boys first.

None the less this is pretty cool and I wish I would've paid the extra few bucks to get the whole family stuff done.

oh well

Monday, May 2, 2011

I suck

At updating...truly I do.

I've been trying to stay as busy at work as possible so it will seem a little less painful but that usually doesn't do the trick.

I am searching a ton for a new job and have found a possibility but still not sure Mr. B will go for it.

If I get an interview I'll let you know more about it.

Anyways La Rue she's just blossoming into this grown child already. I get so sad to think that on Wednesday she'll already be 6 months old. Time does need to slow a little.

She can sit a little by herself now and we just got her tray for her Bumbo and let her test out banana's for the first time in the meshy thing. I don't think they were fully ripe because she would make a funny face haha....brown rice cereal was a no go as well as green beans.

So I said I was going to throw the ol "don't do fruit first" thing out the window...whatever works.
So we'll try nanners for a few more days and introduce Avacodo and/or Sweet Potato.

Some of you know I have gone back and forth on the earring debate...I just wish my pediatricians office did it earlier than 6 months and I don't think I would've felt so bad...for some reason I just think she'll feel the pain more now than she would've at 3 months...that's silly I'm sure and normally she's great with pain like me....so I am now leaning towards getting them down but we'll see what happens on Friday haha

I need to get Ava some balloons for her 6 month birthday on Wednesday. She's flirting like crazy and just smiles at everyone.

The sleeping thing yah it sucks. I know now she's used to it but what can I do? I need sleep too. So I've been doing my best to keep putting her back in but once midnight-1 rolls around I have to give in to function the next day.

I'm trying everything possible. I wish I had enough vacation to take a couple of days to hang with her and get her going.

Mr. B is applying for a new job and if he gets it eventually we'd have to move closer to where we used to live...part of me would like that being close to some friends and part of me really likes being where we're at as far as being kind of far away and it's quiet. I would for sure miss being closer to LSU and the bigger town because we'd still have to drive 25 minutes into New Orleans.
Houses are so much more and so is electricity because it's a different company.

We'll see though

I'm off to do some real work...soon I'll post some pictures

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

My little girl...

isn't so little anymore :( She rolled over at daycare yesterday. I am devestated I won't lie. We had been working with her quite a bit lately trying to get her to do it and having my iphone handy for video recording just in case. About a week ago I gave the go ahead of more tummy time at daycare (wanted to make sure she was strong enough if they couldn't keep an eye on her like I like in case they got busy with the other babies). When I came in and saw the note yesterday I started to well up. I made it to the car to call Mr. B and then cried :( Mr. B knew what I was getting at AGAIN without having to say anything at all. He didn't quite believe Ms Beth but this morning she confirmed that she was on her tummy in her crib and had her head really up high and kind of started bobbing and then BLOOP! Turned over and her eyes got real big like wtf just happened?! haha I called Mr. B on the way to work to confirm and he said "well when she does it at home it'll bet he first time for us and I'm sure there will be plenty of firsts that we get to see that Ms. Beth doesn't" ummm dude we ARE supposed to see first. I'm sure Ms. Beth likes to see them but she doesn't care that much about our child haha And I know it happened so it won't be a first and she said she didn't have to let me know if I didn't want her to and another friend of mine who worked at a daycare said the same thing and I said NOWAY...that's cheating Ava. I am not a one upper as far as milestones because all babies develop differently and even though we wanted her to roll over it wasn't this huge deal to us and reading that others hadn't yet made me fine with it. But BUT if she does I WANT to know to celebrate with her and be proud of her! If she doesn't do it for another 2-3 weeks at home that'll be fine but I wouldn't have wanted to think she did it just then when she's doing it at daycare because even though she doesn't know it I'm not going to take that away from her no matter how sad I get. So with all of this I'm really starting to think my hair falling out is stress/anxiety related now. It may have started with the stuff I listed but it's been over a month and nothing is giving. And even though I'm not depressed (except for not spending more time with Ava) I maybe a little anxious about it (although I'm not going to get on medication...one I'm breast feeding and two I don't think I NEED NEED it...and I would admit if I did) and the stress of my shitty job and stress over leaving her. I've been carrying around a 15lb bag of guilt ....and by the way now up to 16lbs folks haha so of course I was going to talk to my obgyn about it anyways but I'm going to ask what she thinks. Not that, that would change Mr. B's mind...but you never know. All I know is after I found out the way my new supervisor talked to another co-worker that does my job in another city she would have had to fill one more position on Saturday had it been me on that other end of the line because I wouldn't have been treated that way. These people here are out the box and really better watch themselves because I can tell you it won't take a lot to push me over the edge and be gone. I am looking looking but can't find anything closer to the daycare/home/at least the area let alone see what it'll pay. But I WILL NOT give up on my ultimate goal....noway jose

Monday, March 28, 2011

Gymboree Fun and Learn

or whatever it's called. I signed up for Ava and I to got his coming Saturday since Mr. B will be golfing. I figured that was something fun that could get us out of the house and something great for Ava. Has anyone done it yet? I saw how they say they allocate time to have parent discussion or something and honestly I am social I promise you but not in that kind of forced on setting. My idea of fun and learning about my baby isn't with some uppity upscale women (which where this place is located will definitely have those) I mean I'm already worried about what I should wear and having to blow dry and flat iron my hair haha. So can anyone tell me if you have to stay for that? If it was well worth it? Was it awkward? Or am I over analyzing? I tell you I like not getting a period but at the same time don't because I have no idea if I could possibly be pregnant. I was having cramps but not AF cramps, boobs were hurting off and on but I BF so I'm not even thinking of that one. Peeing more than normal but I'm drinking more water for BF'ing but until a couple of days ago I haven't pee'd as much as recently. And I'm like whatever it is what it is but today I started to feel not so good when I hadn't eaten my breakfast yet and then it didn't go away...it felt like MS not the flu. It kind of lingered and went away this afternoon and I just ate some cake and immediately could've gotten sick if I were in the bathroom but just relaxed myself. But I could just be getting a bug. I did test at lunch and it was negative although not sure 1. not morning pee and 2. maybe too soon or 3. not pregs haha So this is when getting a period would be a little more helpful because I'm just going off of a date of conception. Maybe I'm psycho somatic and thinking of symptoms....oh well But what I do know is if I'm not then I'm going to be seriously job hunting. I can't stand this place any longer. They don't treat us right and especially how another one of me was treated this weekend it's ridiculous. My dilemma is there are jobs to be had however I need something closer to the town we live in at least not further away and I won't budge on that. I sent my resume to a part time legit work from home and I did get an email saying they got it but who knows if I'll hear back or not. If I got pregnant now or in a month I would stick it out until a couple of weeks before the birth most likely but if not then I don't want to and I really really would love a p/t stay at home gig that makes up the difference of what I make vs paying for daycare now. We'll see but please be sending those vibes out.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Let me tell you about...

Breast Feeding.

I love it I really do and I should say I'm not here to talk about Breast Feeding but the damn pump.

I have to pump at work obviously to keep up my milk supply and pump for Ava for daycare.

I'm so behind I pump for the next day. My stash is all gone so I could never go anywhere out and about for longer than an hour just to be on the safe side. Yes generally she eats every 3 hours but I don't take any chances with the poor soul that's left behind.

So I pump at 10 and then I pump at 1. And I get anywhere from 4oz on a bad session to 7 on a great session.

Most of the time I get about 11-11.5 so I have to of course pump at home after she's down. I normally wait about an hour to make sure after feeding the piglet (said with love of course) twice once she gets home that I'd have enough.

And each stinking time I have to clean and dry...well I can let them sit out at home but at work I can't have the stuff chilling in the breakroom...it's a pain in the ass to clean quickly by the way. Well really just the one part but I digress.

But today folks....oh today....I pumped for Monday the entire 13.5oz I need yahoooooo!

You just don't know how excited I am because since we've bumped her to 4.5oz I've never been able to pump for the next day while at work. And actually I think it's more like 14.

But I will still pump tonight to start my stash. I was able to keep one bag since I pumped both times but picked her up before her 3:30 eating when I took her to the doc.

I'm going to need about 20oz for the weekend for the Super Fest if I do both days. So yah I still have about 16 more oz to go so any extra always helps.

Anyways just wanted to share my excitement...oh the little things once you become a mommy haha

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Doctor's Visit

Well it's not in her chest whoot whoot!

It's just mucus in her throat and of course since she's 4.5 months she doesn't know how to get it out poor thing.

So the bark is bigger than the bite if you will.

However if she gets a fever or we hear/feel vibration in her chest we need to bring her in but again my doc is pretty conservative when it comes to meds so she didn't want to start on antibiotics if it wasn't completely necessary and I agree.

So she recommended Dimatapp that has Benedryl in it which may help her sleep better too...it's daytime though because nighttime would apparently knock her out and we don't want that especially during the day.

So last night I went to try and give it to her and did the trick of blowing a little in her face...her face was hilarious! Every time I did it her eyes would get as big as a deer's in headlights haha

She did swallow it all though....didn't help a ton for sleep because she kept waking up with the coughing but Rome wasn't built in a day right?!

Now this morning she wakes up at like 6:20...she can't get comfy and of course my alarm is to go off at 6:25 and even though it's 5 minutes every minute counts now with this girl so I wish I could've gotten that sleep. Anywho by the time I have to get up she's back asleep....go figure

And is knocked out. I get ready and I hear her rustling around but her eyes are closed so I'm sure she could've gotten herself back to sleep but I had waited as long as I could so I gave her a little kissy on her hand and she was in a fog but opened her eyes half way and saw I was there and immediately put on the biggest grin. I love how she always wakes up so happy!

She however did not want the medicine today and has already outsmarted me on this whole blowing in her face thing because she took that like a champ without swallowing oy vey

But since the night is always worse I will be happy if we can at least successfully get her to take it at night.

I'm going to do the saline drops in her nose tonight and hopefully suck out some more junk.

I'm just happy it's not too serious and hopefully she has a speedy recovery!