Tidal Wave

Yesterday was a fairly good day. 

Today...oh no. Today was a fucking tidal wave. Sorry no other way to say it. 

I got my first period since November 2014. 

My first period since having Grant. 

I have been a wreck. 

It reminded me Grant is gone. 

It reminded me I may never have another child. 

I do not know what my future holds. 

No control

I am crushed