Thursday, December 29, 2011

polyhydramnios again???

So I am convinced that with Ava I got poly between my 5th and 6th month because I gained 10lbs...yes I did go back home but come on I wasn't pigging out. Because my doctor was on maternity leave herself I got shuffled between doctors who just said I was having a big baby (7lbs 10.2oz at 38w 5d isn't a big baby)

But when she came back I think at my 34 week appointment she measured and said I was measuring at 36/37 weeks and then I told her I wasn't overeating and she ordered an ultrasound where they found out I had about 27cm of fluid and normal range is 20-24.

So they had to do weekly u/s after that to make sure everything was ok.

So this time around at my 5 month appointment I had only gained 7lbs go me! But I had planned on watching very carefully to make sure it didn't jump up. And with the holidays also made sure not to overeat.

I weighed myself the other day and from my 5 month appointment to then I had gained about 7lbs and still have a week to go before I see my doc for my 6 month appointment. So I am feeling that I'm getting it again which is crazy because only like 2% of all pregnancies get it.

Now last time I had already had my GD test and scored very low so she may want to wait until I test to see if I do have GD...I really hope I don't and honestly don't think I do.

But I want to bring this to her attention now since last time it took too long with folks not paying attention.

Hoping that nothing is wrong with Ali and that my body just tends to produce more even when not needed.

We shall see but my belly is looking awfully big these days haha

Here we go...

Ok so work has been watching Internet usage mainly for bandwidth purposes so I can't update as much and I'm not attempting on my phone.

I'm really hoping as I get organized at home I can hop on with my touchpad at night and do some updating.

But things are going well. I do get tired very easily and my aches sooo much more than with Ava. Of course racing after her and then having done this not too long ago I'm sure that's why.

Ava is blossoming so much! The other night she took 2-3 steps to me and has been doing that a lot more. She can go from sitting down to standing up with no help at all and loves to stand and freeze as we call it where she stands like a big girl with nothing and looks at you smiling while the rest of her body is frozen haha...any day she'll be running around.
She loves to get in the cuburds in the kitchen (only the safe ones are open) but I'm rearranging this weekend. I'm also cleaning out room this weekend as well and taking all my Christmas decorations down.

She did so great Christmas morning. We walked in and her face was priceless...so glad we caught that on camera. The entire week folks at work had been getting her things and each night I would let her open them so she could practice. She really had no interest in tearing open the gifts but always ooohed and ahhhed when she could see what they were.

She is signing more, please, and thank you like a champ and her I Love You is waving goodbye because she can't figure out her fingers yet which is fine.

We're doing milk in her sippy at home on the weekends and next week I'm transitioning her to full on sippy instead of bottle unless absolutely necessary. She's also still nursing in the morning and going back down so I will be weaning her of that too.

She had been waking up at 345am for some damn reason the past couple of nights and no matter how many times Mr. B wanted me to get her I wouldn't unless it was 5 or later (and 5 was pushing it). She would cry for an hour straight...and nothing was hurting her either.

But last night she slept until 530a again so we were happy. That's going to suck the first few weeks of Ali being here but hopefully with us not having to get up and get ready Ava will slowly start to sleep later.

Her new thing is crossing her legs/feet when in her new convertible car seat, reading, playing, chilling....haha I love it so much!

I have finished Ava's 1st year book except putting in her stats which I am hoping to do this weekend.

We have so much to do in the guest room which will be Ali's room. We still have to get the bed to BIL and I really hope that's soon..
I have to clean out the closet which I started to do but more things need to be thrown away.

Once I do that then I can put the two night stands that are more like mini bookshelves in the closet for some extra shelving.

Then we have to patch a lot of holes in that room and then I need to rent a steam cleaner and clean all of our carpeting really well. And I will kill our dog if he pee's one more time. He's going to end up being kenneled at night as well if he can't handle it.

Then I have to order the bedding and match the paint color, paint, order decals, we still have to order the furniture which I'm hoping to do in the next couple of days, then wash all of Ava's old clothes.

Then go through the stuff Ava doesn't need to play with anymore and save it for Ali.

Le Sigh a lot to do even though Mr. B thinks we have all the time in the world.
I just hit 23 weeks.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Missing In Action

I know I've been MIA but with good reason.

My FIL passed away unexpectedly a couple of weeks ago and that's why I'm missing Week 17 and 18.

Honestly I don't have the energy to go back and fill it out so hopefully Baby B won't be upset haha

A couple days after that things just got stressful...I was having anxiety about certain things I'd rather not get into and worrying about all types of situations and people and trying to be there for my husband as well.

Well we found out early Sunday morning and then Tuesday I started to feel contractions...at first I tried to convince myself it was just my ligaments stretching but just having done this not too long ago I deep down knew it wasn't that feeling. Thank goodness I have been feeling better so my body would allow me to drink water and I was chugging it.

Wednesday it got worse...and by worse I mean every 45 seconds to a minute I was feeling it...figuring Braxton Hicks by this time and even though technically you're body has BH from about week 6 on you should not be feeling them at 17 weeks. I was chugging even more water. I called my doc but Wednesday's she does sections and wasn't available so I left a message for the nurse but the message taker was a complete moron and was like....so basically contractions due to stress? Umm yes but I'm 17 weeks and that's scary!!!

I was just about to call back and try and talk to someone but the nurse did call. She said listen I don't want to freak you out but it could be bad and we are a little concerned but it could be nothing. Try not to stress (haha funny), drink lots of water and rest and if possible don't drive to Mississippi...well that was out of the question. I couldn't not attend the funeral.

By this time Mr. B had already been driving to MS with MIL and BIL. So I finally text him that I was feeling really bad about giving him that added stress. He dropped them off and turned around and drove the 3.5 hours back. That was really sweet of him.

She said if I was still having them in the morning to call.

And even though they weren't as intense they were still happening so I called and of course couldn't get in until the afternoon.

We waited and then actually got seen fairly quickly. She did the doppler and heard the HB which sounded great and did an internal check...she said things seemed good but she was ordering a cervix check.

I seriously did not think anything of this at the time but thinking back I wonder if she really was concerned but didn't want to stress me out until she got the US results back.

So off I went and she had to do the internal boo....and cervix was long and tight which was great...she even made it clear that was all she was supposed to do (she was the awesome tech that made the decision the day Ava was born that it was time) and I said "awww man".

So then I could see some fingers barely but she started moving it around and showed up.
She then said "do you want me to see real quick on the tummy if I can find out gender?" and we were like "yes!"

And so she did and checked the HB and it was great....the babies legs were crossed so it took a second but at 17 weeks there was really no denying (we have our big one on Monday to officially confirm) but we were all agreed that we'll be having....

Another GIRL!!!!!

I know that Mr. B was happy but sad because especially with the passing of his father I think a boy would've helped him but good to have some good news at a time like that.

We have decided on a name as well....

Allison Hope and we'll call her Ali for short

So we'll have an Ava and Ali :)

Since I did Grace with Ava I really wanted to kind of stick with that theme so Hope just seemed to keep coming back in my head.

I'll hopefully get my Week 19 done today or tomorrow at the latest.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Week 16 Update

How far along? 16 weeks


How big is baby? an avocado 4.6 inches, 3.5oz


Weight gain/loss?172..so I think a total of maybe like 3-4lb gain total...not bad at 4 months however I was on this track until between 5-6 months when I aquired the extra fluid that added 10lbs haha


Maternity clothes? Exclusively in jeans and if there are other pants that aren't I wear my bella band...pretty much wearing regular shirts because all my maternity shirts are bigger


Stretchies? No new ones..I am starting to the see ones on my lower stomach that I didn't really know I had until I have Ava haha but I will buy some lotion to at least TRY and keep them to a minimal


Sleep?Finally getting it since Ava is sleeping through the night like a champ...until she has those mornings where she wakes up before 5 and I make her cry ugh


Best moment this week? I'm officially 4 months and hearing the HB again...and celebrated my baby girls 1st birthday


Movement? Little flutters...


Food cravings?haha anything that I can keep down at this point


Food adversions/foods that make me sick?It could be water that throws me into a bad 12 hours spell


Gender?I'm feeling boy...but this probably is because all the women on my mom's side (G Grandma, Grandma, Aunt, Mom, even some cousins) have all done girl, boy, girl, boy and so on...so I am convinced this will happen and the baby psychic said so haha


Labor signs?Same thank goodness


Belly button in or out?Same Innie


What I miss?I'm going with feeling normal and not being sick


What I am looking forward to? Relaxing a bit this weekend (hopefully)


Milestones? Hitting 4 months


New things this week?People are staring and asking now


Randoms?It's time to start buckling down and bagging all the clothes I threw to my floor in our closet and give them to the goodwill...then bring in my small desk and put it in our closet along with a storage thingy for paper, envelopes etc. Then start working on Baby B's closet yike!


Weekly Wisdom?I haven't gotten any honestly! It's funny


Freakout Moment?
umm don't think I've had one other then holy crap I'm already 4 months???

Week 15 Update

How far along? 15 weeks


How big is baby? an orange 4inches, 2.5oz


Weight gain/loss?
About the same..I was down about a pound and will let you know on the 8th


Maternity clothes?
Definitely at least sporting maternity bottoms or the bella band with some of my looser fitting shirts or my smaller maternity shirts


Stretchies? No new ones..I am starting to the see ones on my lower stomach that I didn't really know I had until I have Ava haha but I will buy some lotion to at least TRY and keep them to a minimal


Sleep?
Finally getting it since Ava is sleeping through the night like a champ...until she has those mornings where she wakes up before 5 and I make her cry ugh


Best moment this week? Just making it through another week


Movement? Little flutters...


Food cravings?
haha anything that I can keep down at this point


Food adversions/foods that make me sick?
It could be water that throws me into a bad 12 hours spell


Gender?
I'm feeling boy...but this probably is because all the women on my mom's side (G Grandma, Grandma, Aunt, Mom, even some cousins) have all done girl, boy, girl, boy and so on...so I am convinced this will happen and the baby psychic said so haha


Labor signs?
Same thank goodness


Belly button in or out?
Same Innie


What I miss?
I'm going with feeling normal and not being sick


What I am looking forward to?
Family and Friends coming into town


Milestones?
Hitting another week


New things this week?
People are staring and asking now


Randoms?
hmm randoms I have too much crap in my house and want to get energy to get rid of it


Weekly Wisdom?
I haven't gotten any honestly! It's funny


Freakout Moment?

Mr. B had to go out of town the last two days before house guests arrived and I felt bad all the days and it was tough getting things cleaned and ready for them while taking care of Ava when I was sick and tired at the end of the night

Ava's Weekly Update- 52 Weeks

Happy birthday to baby! It's perfectly normal for parents to feel a mixture of pride at seeing how far you've come and sadness at how quickly your little one has gone from baby to toddler. Enjoy your day together -- this is the beginning of an exciting new stage in both of your lives.

I totally had mixed emotions...I was fine on her actual birthday but the next day was her party and when I blew out her candle and we sang happy birthday I started choking up and had to hold back haha

In addition to a fab first birthday party, baby needs to fit in a doctor's appointment this month. Your ped will check baby's growth and development, just like previous well-child visits.

We did this on her actual birthday (I know, I know I'm terrible but she got some yummy apples and cinnamon from Chili's afterwards and was happy)
She actually dropped a little weight and I can only guess that some of when I lost my supply and she wasn't interested in eating as much solids for awhile because she would bounce around.
Her height and weight both dipped but her head stayed in the swing.

I can't express how much I love this child...she brightens my day even when she drives me crazy. I can't believe it's already been a year. I am so proud of the beautiful toddler she is becoming yet sad to see my baby go. She amazes me with how intelligent she is and how much of an investigator and observer she is...she get's that from me totally. haha
The doctor wasn't concerned and said honestly she just looks like she's going to be petite haha that's funny.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Week 14 Update

How far along? 14 weeks

How big is baby? a lemon

Weight gain/loss? Well I'm not weighing myself at home since it's a little off from the doc...all I can say is I was down a pound the last visit. I'll let you know in 2 weeks ~Then~

~Now~

About the same..I was down about a pound and will let you know on the 8th



Maternity clothes? Been living in dresses but finally bought some maternity stuff on ebay ~Then

~Now~

Definitely at least sporting maternity bottoms or the bella band with some of my looser fitting shirts or my smaller maternity shirts



Stretchies? none yet thank goodness but I did buy some butter to start using now ~Then~

~Now~

No new ones..I am starting to the see ones on my lower stomach that I didn't really know I had until I have Ava haha but I will buy some lotion to at least TRY and keep them to a minimal




Sleep? Getting it...always want it haha the only issue I have is they say you should sleep on your side and I tend to go back to my back ~Then~

~Now~

Finally getting it since Ava is sleeping through the night like a champ...until she has those mornings where she wakes up before 5 and I make her cry ugh



Best moment this week? Really seeing a good size baby bump ~Then~

~Now~

I would say I definitely popped...people are staring haha




Movement? None yet ~Then~

~Now~

Little flutters...started about Tuesday




Food cravings? Still clementines, hard boiled eggs, tomatoes ~Then~

~Now~

haha anything that I can keep down at this point





Food adversions/foods that make me sick? eh it comes and goes everyday for something different ~Then~

~Now~

It could be water that throws me into a bad 12 hours spell




Gender? I’m still feeling girl…even though my May board says boy :) ~Then~

~Now~

I'm feeling boy...but this probably is because all the women on my mom's side (G Grandma, Grandma, Aunt, Mom, even some cousins) have all done girl, boy, girl, boy and so on...so I am convinced this will happen and the baby psychic said so haha




Labor signs? none. ~Then~

~Now~

Same thank goodness




Belly button in or out? Innie ~Then~

~Now~

Same Innie




What I miss? Still going with not feeling sick ~Then~

~Now~

I'm going with feeling normal and not being sick




What I am looking forward to? Hearing the babies heartbeat on my doppler....possibly picking out some baby furniture this weekend ~Then~

~Now~

Hopefully feeling good and going to buy Ava's earrings and get my house cleaned this weekend




Milestones? All the books say we’re in second tri officially now (for those late books using the 14w milestone). And seeing Butterball actually looks like a person. ~Then~

~Now~

Making it to 14 weeks!




New things this week? umm feeling like I'm really pregnant. Like when people ask and I say 14 weeks they no longer say "ohhh you have a really long ways to go" ~Then~

~Now~

People are staring and asking now




Randoms? I'm still waiting to hear from HR and since work is kind of in limbo due to the FCC it should be interesting. ~Then~

~Now~

hmm randoms I have too much crap in my house and want to get energy to get rid of it




Weekly Wisdom? It's not wisdom but I'm getting a lot more people saying oh I was sick the entire pregnancy so hopefully it goes away for you...I DONT WANT TO HEAR THAT ~Then~

~Now~

I haven't gotten any honestly! It's funny



Freakout Moment? Last night I had a meltdown. Mr. B is out of town which is honestly fine by me these days but he called and asked how I was and I don't know why but I started crying...he didn't know it but I got off the phone and just had a little pity party and then I was ok. I just think I'm overwhelmed with the work thing, and the sickness thing is just wearing me thin.But I'm good now! ~Then~

~Now~

Last night on Mr. B but because he was being a really big dick...yes I said that and I told him "oh you're stressed? How about me? The past 3 days have been the worst I've felt in my entire life and I haven't really said anything to you...just kept making dinner and taking care of Ava" and then he was inappropriate and I told him so and then he felt bad and apologized...but then this morning he was a jerkoff again and then was like "I didn't mean it that way" hmppf I think he's going through hormone changes haha


Well the stupid thing won't let me write but me in the white shorts is ~Then~ and the Pink Shirt is ~Now~

Ava's Weekly Update- 51 Weeks

Help baby continue to develop her vocabulary by asking her what she prefers -- say, the yellow shirt or the blue shirt. Little things like this help her understand the differences between words. Continue pointing out and explaining things the two of you encounter, such as the number of toys in a bucket and all their different colors. While she's not speaking in full sentences yet, listening to you use them gives her verbal development a major boost.

We talk to her all of the time and ask her where we are and where her eyes, ears, mouth, and nose are.
Mr. B has a problem with talking baby talk to her (this is a silly thing he's done with me that drives me batty) and this morning I finally snapped and said STOP! Just talk normal or she's going to the three is free...she will pick that up and get confused.
I'm going to start going over the colors with outfits though that's a great idea!

It's completely natural for baby to have separation anxiety at this age. Allow her a little time to warm up to family members, friends, and babysitters before you leave her with them. You can also foster her independence by letting her explore different (baby-proofed!) rooms in your home while you check in periodically -- this will help her get used to not being by your side all the time.

She is experiencing this at daycare...she really gets upset when her primary teacher goes to lunch or leaves for the day...her little best friend Jax at school is going through it too (he's about a month younger than her). We had the babysitter come over for the first time last Friday (she used to be Ava's afternoon teacher until Ava was about 5 months) and she did fantastic...stared at her for a minute and I handed her over and she smiled and they talked and we walked right out and she didn't even miss us haha.
But I don't think we'll do so great at her party...I bet there are some that scare her because she doesn't remember or they try and get in her face too quickly...they'll learn.
We let her roam the house now...(everything is baby proofed) and we do close the doors to the guest bath that has a toilet and our separate toilet...she really likes to go to our bedroom and bathroom (sinks and separate shower and tub) and check things out...sometimes she's just sitting there when I check in on her haha

Don't be concerned if baby isn't walking by her first birthday -- some babies need up to 24 months before taking those first steps. In the meantime, make sure she has plenty of safe space to practice pulling up and taking steps.

She's doing great with pulling up and the shuffle when holding onto things so I doubt it will be that much longer before she starts trying...maybe a month or two...I'm not worried. She's very inquisitive and will learn when she's ready

Ava's Weekly Update- 50 Weeks

As baby enters toddlerhood, you may notice him becoming increasingly resistant to naptime and bedtime. Work to establish and follow a routine as much as possible, and make sure to factor in time for baby to wind down and relax. It's also important for caregivers to maintain the routine whenever you're away so that baby understands there are no exceptions to bedtime rules.

Ava doesn't really do naps...she has to be exhausted to fall asleep in a bouncy seat at school...sometimes will fall asleep if being held...will NEVER nap in her crib there and at home for that matter.
She always falls asleep with me in bed when we take a joint nap which I am fine with because she'll normally sleep longer and that means I can get a nap in haha.
Bed time I have noticed is a little later these days but she's out for the count by 8.

Baby may soon start to show interest in feeding himself with a spoon. Let him! Try to accept that mealtime will be messy for a while, and keep reminding yourself that this is a step toward independence for baby. Soon, you'll be able to enjoy your own meal while baby eats all by himself.

She just likes the spoon to play with haha but she's doing fantastic at picking things up to eat and prefers that which is fine for now. She also is doing really great with the sippy cup. We still do bottle for milk at daycare and then I still nurse her when she's home but she gets the sippy cup once or twice a day with water at daycare and then at home during her snack and dinner.

If you're ready to wean baby from formula or breast milk, the American Academy of Pediatrics recommends whole milk until age two -- the fat and cholesterol are good for baby's development.

I have her one year appointment set for her birthday...I'm a bad mom I know but I took the day off and she'll forget about the shots she gets in the morning 10 minutes later anyways. I will be discussing the milk thing when there. Of course I do not pump anymore and figured it would take a few weeks to wean the nursing but wanted to see what she recommended for weaning the formula and going to all milk other than nursing. I'm very excited about this...because formula is expensive and I'm very very very lucky that I just recently had to start buying it.

Ava's Weekly Update- 49 Weeks

When you notice baby start pulling herself up and attempting to walk, try a game of push and pull to help her along. Get a light, baby-sized chair or box, and hold onto one side while baby supports herself with the other. Gently pull the item toward yourself while baby holds on and walks along with it.

Ava can pull herself up anything like a champ...I swear she has frog suction cup fingers haha. But she isn't interested in walking unless she's holding onto the table or couch and then she'll move from side to side

Baby now has an attention span of two to five minutes, which means she can enjoy both story time and playtime for a bit longer than when she was an infant. Her muscles are growing too -- expect her to start taking those first steps any day now.

I'll start trying two books a night again...she got tired of that and we had to go to one but I bet she'll do well with two again.

Schedule baby's birthday party according to her normal daily routine. She'll be best able to enjoy the party if she's rested, well-fed, and feeling secure.

We scheduled it for 1 so that should be good. We had originally scheduled it for 1-2:30 and then to watch the LSU/Bama game but stupid CBS changed allll the rules and moved the game to 7...which is fine. I figure an hour/hour and a half party is the perfect amount of time.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Week 13 Update

Week 13 Update


How far along?: 13 Weeks


How big is baby: 2.9 inches long, weighing .81oz and the size of a Peach


Maternity clothes: I can wear some of my regular clothes but now that I am out I'm wearing maternity because I need it!


Sleep: The rib is still hurting but I've mastered how to sleep where I'm not in pain...Ava had a few nights where she woke up before 4:30 and she had to cry it out but last night she slept until I about woke her up at 6:35 so yipee...I think it being dark helps


Best moment this week: Getting into the 2nd Trimester!


Movement: possibly but I've been focusing on my breathing so much and not getting sick I haven't even been thinking about that or excited honestly


Food cravings: nothing


Food aversions: Everything makes me sick so it really doesn't matter


Gender: Won't know that for awhile.


Labor signs: None for a long long time please!


Belly button in or out?: Innie


What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)


What I am looking forward to: Hopefully feeling well enough to eat a good amount at Texas De Brazil this Friday


Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.


Milestones: Getting into the 2nd Trimester makes me feel so good! Also hearing the heartbeat on the doppler.






Week 12 Update

Week 11
2 Update

How far along?: 12 Weeks

How big is baby: 2.1 inches long, weighing .49oz and the size of a Plum

Maternity clothes: I started wearing my black stretchy yogaish pants but that are made to be worn at work...but with regular shirts. Today it's very hard to hide in my khaki's

Sleep: When I can actually fall asleep (which is hard to do because I feel terrible all of the time) then it's not bad.

Best moment this week: 12 Weeks and telling everyone!

Movement: possibly but I've been focusing on my breathing so much and not getting sick I haven't even been thinking about that or excited honestly

Food cravings: nothing

Food aversions: Everything makes me sick so it really doesn't matter

Gender: Won't know that for awhile.

Labor signs: None for a long long time please!

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)

What I am looking forward to: Getting into the 2nd Trimester and feeling better

Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any even with telling folks!

Milestones: Another week down

Weight: When I went to the doctor I was down about a pound from my 2 month appointment

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

3 Month Appointment

This will be quick and I'll do my weekly update tomorrow.

Lost about a pound.

Realized it's a dislocated rib not pulled muscle and nothing I can really do about it...yay!

Heard the heartbeat on the doppler which is great...took her a minute and I have to say I panicked but all is well.

Feel like poop

Announced to FB and the center manager here...feel so relieved.

Also told doctor I'm about 95% sure that I think a RCS (repeat c-section) is our best option and she agreed (remember we had a long talk last time and she did give me the go ahead to make up my mind but did agree with all of my points for the RCS) and she said that if I changed my mind and wanted to try a VBAC we could but she ultimately feels more comfortable with doing the RCS...I may change my mind...going on the VBAC board is no help because I get a sense of judging if you say you're thinking about a RCS and honestly it's really not recommended for folks having children under 18 months apart...I know doctors will try but it really does increase the risk. So I've been going to the c-section board because they do discuss VBAC's as well but also talk about why they had RCS's and it's nice to hear that and hear their recovery stories.

Anywho it's time for me to go and I need to before I get sick!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Ava's Weekly Update- 48 Weeks

Baby's speech development is growing rapidly these days, so try not to use baby talk too much when communicating with him. He's learning the language from those around him, so use simple adult language. Though baby's speech won't be as coherent as yours for a few years, encourage him to keep talking (and crack the code). If you correct him too much, it can get discouraging. Plus, it's pretty cute to hear him talk, even if you're the only one who understands what he's saying.





Haha I have to keep reminding Mr. B to talk normal...he then get's his manly deep voice and makes fun of me. Ava can now say uh-oh (we've already discussed this), owww (as in ouch..probably get's that from me when she bites my nipple..sorry TMI), and says Oh!

ok so this was in my draft file and now the 48 week email is missing from my inbox and isn't in my deleted even though I have a ton before and after it so who knows.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Week 11 Update

Week 11 Update

How far along?: 11 Weeks

How big is baby: 1.6 inches long, weighing .25oz and the size of a Lemon

Maternity clothes: I started wearing my black stretchy yogaish pants but that are made to be worn at work...but with regular shirts. Today it's very hard to hide in my khaki's

Sleep: When I can actually fall asleep (which is hard to do because I feel terrible all of the time) then it's not bad.

Best moment this week: Hitting 11 weeks

Movement: possibly but I've been focusing on my breathing so much and not getting sick I haven't even been thinking about that or excited honestly

Food cravings: nothing

Food aversions: Everything makes me sick so it really doesn't matter

Gender: Won't know that for awhile.

Labor signs: None for a long long time please!

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)

What I am looking forward to: Hitting 12 weeks and my 3 month appt...I moved it up to actual 12 weeks instead of 12w3d hah. I don't recall doing an NT scan but I'm going to ask her about that.

Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.

Milestones: Another week down

Weight: No idea...I think I've lost...even one of the daycare teachers mentioned that (I was wearing black so she said it could be slimming but she thought she noticed and I think so in my legs). Also Friday I had this violent spell and then over the weekend noticed my side kind of hurting. Monday I had another violent spell in the shower and immediately knew what happened. I had gotten sick so hard on Friday that I pulled/strained a muscle and let me tell you....it's getting worse. I also am still not completely over my sickness since I can't take anything so I cough a good amount and that pain resonates...it's even moving towards the front of my rib cage now...and I had a sneeze a minute ago and my side hasn't stopped aching. I really hope that starts to feel better soon because it's been painful.

On another note I have lined up a babysitter for Ava for Mr. B's birthday dinner. Generally we go to Texas De Brazil since we get a buy one get one free coupon and since it's 50 a person that's a good deal. I asked if he wanted that or somewhere else but he said he wanted that. I have about 2.5 weeks to feel better folks. I will be so sad and upset if I can't eat that amazing salad bar which is lie it has everything on it! And those wonderful meats...last time I was there at 37 weeks pregnant and the guy said that they had no problem cooking some longer for me since I can't have raw so I'll have to do that but looking forward to it. It will be the first time leaving Ava with a real babysitter sitter...not a friend or Mr. B. The girl used to be her afternoon teacher at daycare so it's not like I don't know her or Ava doesn't so it should be fine.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Ava's Weekly Update- 47 Weeks

As baby's language skills improve, you can start teaching her about manners. Say "please" and "thank you" whenever appropriate in your interactions, and prompt her to do the same. And, instead of picking up her toys while she's down for a nap, make cleaning up part of the playtime routine and encourage her to "help" however she can.

This is a great idea especially because down here manners is a big thing. I'm going to try this whole help me clean up thing and see how that goes haha

Sucking on her thumb or a pacifier is baby's way of soothing herself. According to the American Dental Association, there's no need for real concern regarding pacifier usage until age four, when permanent teeth start coming in, but you may want to consider weaning sooner rather than later for an easier transition -- in addition to affecting teeth formation, it can also affect baby's ability to talk.

This currently isn't an issue for us....Ava was never a big paci fan and still isn't. Sucking her thumb was a quick little phase. Of course we won't introduce the paci now but I guess she could always take up thumb sucking if she really wanted to....we'll watch for it but aren't concerned now.

Opt for short, manageable stories when you read to baby -- her attention span is only about three or four minutes right now. Trying to read for longer than that may cause her to get fussy.

See she used to love love love longer stories but just recently she gets distracted quickly and wants to turn the page or look around so I'm taking this into consideration.

Ava's Weekly Update- 46 Weeks

If you're breastfeeding and wondering when you should wean baby, know there's no "perfect" time. The American Academy of Pediatrics recommends breastfeeding for at least a year -- and continuing as long as you and baby both want. Of course, we know that some moms choose to wean earlier. If you're considering it, talk to your doctor before you introduce cow's milk into baby's diet. Many say to wait at least until her first birthday

Let me say this has been a long long road and sometimes a struggle (especially as of late) but I'm glad that my body and baby allowed us to be able to breastfeed this long. When I first started my mini goal was 3 months but I really wanted to make it to 6 months...then my New Year's Resolution was 9 months, and at that point I said why not go for 12? But as Ava's teeth came in (specifically once she got the top and had her bottom's) that was something that I had/have to struggle with and sometimes it hurts but it's not THAT bad. When I got pregnant with lil one my milk supply depleted so flipping fast! Normally I could pump twice a day (sometimes had to pump a tad at night) and get her the 13oz she liked (with breast milk you don't need as much) but then it dropped to 8, 7, and now about 5-6. So we have to supplement but I figured at least we made it all the way and now that we've introduced solids I'm ok with it. I have to say feeling so sick lately I am looking forward to a year when I will stop pumping at work. I'll continue to feed at home but we'll introduce cow's milk as well.

Books are very good for baby, so experiment with different ones. Bright colors, interactive features, and durability (baby likes to pull, grab, and bite) are all qualities to look for when shopping or borrowing. It's okay to allow baby to explore around the house without you hovering; just check in and call his name every few minutes to make sure he's not getting into trouble. This way, he'll feel secure and independent.

We learned very quickly to save the nice books for bedtime and let her have the hard ones haha...we have different shapes and sizes and she truly does enjoy them which is great! Lately she doesn't want to explore...she wants to be with me.all.the.stinking.time! But when she does want to explore it consists of: pulling out a drawer in an old hutch thingy, checking out the roomba, checking out the dog food, or checking out our scale and tub in our bathroom...le sigh

Make sure that whole milk dairy products (yogurt and cheeses) are part of baby's diet until he's two years old.

ummm thanks for that tip???

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Week 10 Update

Week
9/10 Update

How far along?: 10 Weeks

How big is baby: .91 inches long, weighing .07oz and the size of a Green Olive/ 1.2 inches long, weighing .14oz and the size of a Prune

Maternity clothes: I was going to tell them today but (10w sorry skipping ahead) but the center manager (who isn't my manager) has been so busy that I'll push it as long as I can.

Sleep: When I can actually fall asleep (which is hard to do because I feel terrible all of the time) then it's not bad.

Best moment this week: Hitting 10 weeks

Movement: possibly but I've been focusing on my breathing so much and not getting sick I haven't even been thinking about that or excited honestly

Food cravings: nothing

Food aversions: Everything makes me sick so it really doesn't matter

Gender: Won't know that for awhile.

Labor signs: None for a long long time please!

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)

What I am looking forward to: Hitting 12 weeks and hopefully hearing lil one's HB on the doppler since I'll be 12w3d when I go

Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.

Milestones: Another week down

Weight: No idea...the last thing I've cared to even check on is my weight right now.

I'm feeling terribly guilty because I can't get excited right now at all. I mean I have like 6 apps on my phone to go through this pregnancy and have no been able to even open them because I don't want to know anything right now other than to feel better.

I have whined so much today on here but since I lived through it once and that was bad and this is like 10x worse I feel I can pull out the bitch card every once in a while.

Sorry

I'm so behind on updating this with Ava's weeks and did I even get Week 9 in there? All I know is I for sure am behind at least a week on Ava's progress and today's Week 10 and I am exhausted and sick.

It's taking so much just to write this let alone think but what else do I have to do. It's a pretty slow week at work but honestly I am so much more sick this go round that I spend every minute here trying not to get sick and then going home to a crazy active almost 11 month old eek! Mr. B just went out of town today and will be gone at least until Thursday.

Most times I would be a little relieved to just worry about Ava and myself but he has been good with giving me 20 minutes to decompress when he gets home which usually means I lay on the bed hoping to feel better.

Ava has started this new thing where she almost falls asleep around 7:15 then awakes around 7:35 and wants to play. I don't have energy anymore to keep trying to get her to sleep so I let her play and around 8 she wants to be fed again and go down. She's great sleeping on me every.which.way.humanly.possible but as soon as I put her in her crib she's up. We've been letting her cry it out in there but she's resilient y'all so Mr. B has stepped up to the plate to hold her and walk while I lay there trying not to barf.

So that will be tonight's struggle but I will get the bed with our new uverse (yay for watching recorded shows in bed now) and miss thang maybe just have to join me in there until she's good and tired.

Now onto the CIO other than when she goes down first thing...it's been a work in progress and by that I mean really f*cking annoying haha but we've been doing it.

She averages waking 2-3 times and cries for a good amount of time...she's so stubborn like me. But last night she I think woke up around 10:30 but we don't really count that but only cried for a minute and didn't wake up until I got her to feed her! She generally wakes around 4:30 but I say that's too early and she'll go back down until around 5:45 and that's when I get her feed her and let her get in bed with us.

Because the alarm is set for 6:20 so at 5:45 to feed her isn't a big deal since I fall asleep doing it and she needs to eat before she goes to daycare. Then she usually stays asleep while we get ready which irks me because it's Mr. B's job while I'm in the shower to get her ready and then I get ready and watch her while he showers but she's so peaceful that I won't wake her if she's still sleeping.

I have to say I am looking forward to getting her back on the ol schedule of sleeping until 8 when I'm on leave (hopefully a permanent one hah)

Another thing this whole lay on your left side for blood flow guess what generally helps me feel better...right side. So I do it until I start feeling better and then flip onto my left to go to sleep. I do normally prefer my left or back but hate when I can't. Same goes for sushi, unheated lunch meats, ,medium rare steaks..etc..etc.etc..

I am concerned with not getting enough water. Before getting pregnant even I downed water a lot (one it did help with bf'ing but I like water) and now LOOKING at it makes me want to get sick and even chewing on ice chips now makes me sick. Capri Sun's Tropical Punch is the only thing besides dark carbonated beverages that make me feel ok. I try and stay away from caffeinated drinks because of bf'ing and now pregnancy but carbonated (not out of a can) cokes and dr. pepper's generally ease my stomach for some strange reason. I just want to get over this hump so I can take better care of myself and eat all healthy things and drink tons of water....ugh

10W

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Ava's Weekly Update- 45 Weeks

Baby's language has improved to the point where she's actually starting to mean what she says (or squeals). Continue talking to her and responding to whatever you think she's trying to convey. She'll soon be able to understand simple directions like "hold the ball" or "pass me the cup." Games like peekaboo and patty-cake will help further develop her communication and memory.

Everyday it seems like Ava is picking something up. She really does remember High Five! She also understands the sign for milk, and her daycare teacher says she tries to say "bottle", she says mama and dada. She knows how to roll/share back and forth as well. She also knows how to play peek a boo either by pulling a cover off my face or she'll do it to herself.

Baby loves reading books with you. Make storytime even more educational by encouraging her to point at familiar objects in the pages. You may also notice baby pointing at things in the real world -- this is her way of letting you know what she wants or is interested in when she doesn't have the words. Help her out by naming whatever it is she's pointing at -- soon, she'll be able to say it herself.

She loves story time when we're "winding" down for the night which is hilarious these days and when I say hilarious I don't really mean hilarious haha. But we're starting to point to her nose, mouth, feet, and toes as well. And when she stares at Parle we say doggie. She's definitely more aware of her surroundings.

Try not to overreact if baby takes a minor tumble. If you remain calm and collected, she'll be more likely to stay cool as well

Mr. B definitely needs to read this haha...I have been telling him this and internally I still gasp but she definitely waits for a reaction before she reacts.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Week 7/8 Update

Week 7/8 Update

How far along?: 7 Weeks 3 Days or 8 Weeks 1 day

How big is baby: .51inches long and the size of a Blueberry

Maternity clothes: I wanted to wait until 3 months to tell work (well my office) but I'm going to tell them on Monday after we have the U/S on Friday. I still am not happy about it but I can't hide this bump any longer and NEED to be in maternity clothes. I never thought I'd say that so soon.

Sleep: Ok it's the same I guess but CIO ebbs and flows. Last night was a great night but we'll see. I'm looking forward to some sleep.

Best moment this week: Seeing our little one on Friday!!!

Movement: Ok I'll say this and then judge myself for being stupid...I swear these past two days I have felt flutters...But it seems even too early for 2nd baby but maybe not?

Food cravings: Taco Bell for a hot minute

Food aversions: Everything makes me sick so it really doesn't matter

Gender: Won't know that for awhile.

Labor signs: None for a long long time please!

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)

What I am looking forward to: September 16th when we can see our little one.

Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.

Milestones: Another week down and less than 48 hours until we see the little one

Weight: 164.2 umm yes you read that right! That's like almost 3lbs folks. I'm thinking my milk supply may have something to do with it though since BF'ing had kept the weight off....but I noticed the huge increase oh about Monday and that's when the belly really seemed to pooch out so who knows...maybe there's two in there?! aghhh

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Ava's Weekly Update- 44 Weeks

As baby grows, actions that may seem like defiance -- throwing food, banging objects, biting, pulling -- may really be his way of learning. Discipline is essential, but so is letting him explore. Trust your gut and stay consistent in your reactions, and over time, you and baby will both learn what works best.

Oh my gosh yes! In fact Ava just spit food all over my face and clothes last night and she did it to her daycare teacher the other day haha. But definitely banging different objects to hear the sounds, biting she has done a few times but we are very stern on the no with that one. We do take a laid back approach in letting her figure things out but there are area's that are a no go and we sternly tell her no, pick up her and move her and give her something else to do. She knows better at this point because most often than not she will look at us and slooooowly start to do whatever she shouldn't be doing haha.


Baby's personality and temperament are starting to show. Whether he's laid-back and shy or energetic and outgoing, this is your time to get to know him. The best part? Spotting the characteristics he inherited from you!

Ava can be so laid back sometimes it's awesome and then other's you better watch out haha....most of the time when she's upset it's because she's hungry or doesn't want to be in her crib/go to bed surprise surprise. Last night was night #2 of the CIO (which we absolutely hate but we have to get this figured out before the baby comes and I need sleep) and she cried on and off for 2 hours before I just went to get her at 4:45. I fed her and then she fell asleep but woke up right away when I put her in her crib so she came in with me at that point. We're going to keep at it though because we know it will take a bit and consistency is key.


The guilt has come back about bringing another baby into the house so early. This week I've been going to the daycare on lunch to feed Ava. That way she's only taking in formula for her afternoon feeding and I have been loving the extra time of how excited she is to see me but it's too much for me so I've been getting over the guilt of the giving more formula and it's not for much longer anyways. But when I'm spending those special moments with her I feel bad that I won't give her enough attention. I know I will.

Mr. B is excited for a second but he too the other day said "you know it will be great but I will miss just playing with her on the bed and having that 1:1 time."

I know what he means by that....others who don't have children or don't have them so close may think that sounds selfish but I get it. I follow a blog where they really had special roles with their children and one tended to favor one parent and the other child the other parent and so they made it a point a couple times a week to switch it up and play with the other and get quality time in and that really helped. This will definitely be the case with us especially when Mr. B will be out of town.


Sick of being sick

Oh my gosh y'all this M/S is no joke. I do remember dry heaving a lot more with Ava but I think that's because I tried that to see if I felt better. I don't remember it being this bad though. The pills they work for 4 hours but you can only take them every 8 so you know where that's going. Small meals only help sometimes and all the other fun remedies don't work either.

Today I actually felt pretty good with all the stuff I tried doing until 2 and at 2:30 I could take another pill and still nothing.

This is making it so hard to drink water because honestly the thought of it makes me want to projectile vomit at my desk.

I'm trying but again upset that I know I'm not getting enough. At night usually around 8 or so it seems to be ok for a couple of hours so I try and get 30oz in then.

And yesterday I was wearing this dress that always does seem to give me a pooch where the waist starts and I kept thinking man this is crazy and I kept pulling it down and I was very self conscious.

I get home and change clothes and look in the mirror and I'm like "whoa wait a second!" everyone there was a serious bump. It felt hard too. I was 1. A little taken aback that it was happening so fast and it wasn't bloat and 2. That I can feel it above my belly button. Maybe this has something to do with just having a child 10 months ago??? Maybe it's really twins haha

I won't lie I did get concerned for extra amniotic fluid already and what that could mean so soon since we don't get our ultrasound until next Friday.

I have no idea how I'm supposed to hide this from work for another month...I don't think it's going to happen honestly.

When I get home I'll upload the picture I took last night...it's the same today as well. oh boy!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Week 6/7 Update

Week 6/7 Update

How far along?: 6 Weeks 2 Days or 7 Weeks 0 days

How big is baby: .25inches long and the size of a Sweet Pea

Maternity clothes: Nope but late last week things did start to feel tight...however now things are fine again because I've been sick and haven't kept things down or been eating like normal

Sleep: Having a 10 month old who loves to co-sleep doesn't warrant the best sleep because I've been trying to let her cry it out for a bit and wean her of that. This has nothing to do with being pregnant though haha

Best moment this week: Getting through another week

Movement: None

Food cravings: None so far

Food aversions: Nothing per say but I'm feeling sick a lot

Gender: Won't know that for awhile.

Labor signs: None for a long long time please!

Belly button in or out?: Innie

What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)

What I am looking forward to: September 16th when we can see our little one.

Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.

Milestones: Another week closer to seeing our baby!

Weight: 161.2 So we're talking ounces so I would say could've dropped a tad from being sick but it could just be the scale.

For a minute I thought maybe I wouldn't get morning sickness (we all know with me it's not in the morning it's a 24/7 thing) but I started to not feel so great on Thursday and then it snowballed throughout this weekend. I got bad sick here at work today. That's the stuff that's hard to hide. This feeling is I think worse than with Ava..which is hard to believe. It's making it worse running after her and trying to get her to sleep in her crib all night so we're up a lot. I called the nurse and she called in a prescription for me. Not sure what she prescribed. Last time it didn't work but I'm hopeful.

Ava's daycare teacher said her sister used to get sick a lot and her doctor told her before getting out of bed in the morning to suck on a Hersey's kiss until it dissolves and that really helped her. I'm up for trying anything.

Looks like soup for me tonight!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Ava's Weekly Update- 43 Weeks

Baby's first birthday is approaching, and infantdom is quickly becoming a thing of the past. Now that she can feed herself with her fingers and hold a cup, watch out for food fights. Baby loves throwing things, but not because she's trying to drive you mad -- taking action and watching its immediate effects actually help her learn.

We have taking the whole solid's thing pretty slowly. She hated the brown rice cereal that I ground up and cooked (shame on her hah) but love's puree's. This weekend I'm actually going to introduce soft sliced carrots and maybe apples and avocado's to her since she likes all of those things in puree form.
As far as drinking she does bottle of course at daycare but we haven't started her on the sippy cup yet. I'm going to put a little water in it or BM if I have enough to see how she does.



From playing patty-cake to holding out her arms while you get her dressed, baby's growing up in little ways every day. Her vocabulary is also expanding -- expect to hear more than "mama" and "dada" pretty soon. Your words are starting to make more sense to her too, so keep up your end of the chatter as much as possible.

I've definitely noticed this past week that Ava is learning a ton of things. I have been working on hello and bye bye (she flails her arm about but I know what she's trying to say...she doesn't do it every time but she's getting there), also doing high five (she will remember after we do it a few times but hours later I can't randomly ask for a high five and she'll remember).

She is chattering a ton and good to know that soon she really will say mama and dada and mean it. Whenever I say mama and do the sign for it she smiles so big...she's been smiling at that for a couple months now.

We say a prayer for Tripp Roth and the family twice a day and every time I say "Ava do you want to say a pray for Tripp?" (specifically in the car where I can see her but she can't see me) she smiles big.

I really have been talking to her a lot these past few months and will ramp it up from now on.



Serve baby's food in a bowl rather than a plate to help contain the mess. Using bowls that suction onto the high chair table will also keep things (relatively) clean.

This should be interesting but I'll give it a whirl.


Ava now has her top left front tooth and both bottom teeth. I noticed that her top right tooth is about to cut. The past two weeks she had been teething bad but that's all that I see coming in.

She now crawls everywhere! And I mean the real crawl not fast army crawling.

She is pulling herself up on anything and everything and wants to be in the know of everything as well.

Last weekend I put the things on the cabinets that tie two together. I left the really heavy drawers accessible and the pots and pans open because if she wants to get in there and make noise I'm fine with that.

She is so nosy and I know she get's that from me. She will tilt and turn her head just to see who walked by...haha it's really funny.

She also will get on all 4's sort of like the crab walk and she's trying to figure out how to stand up and let her hands go but isn't quite there yet.

We put a baby gate in front of the fireplace so of course she's no longer interested in that, but her new hobby is to push the receiver buttons and bang on the Blue Ray player...oh joy.

I can not believe she's almost 10 months.

I have started planning her 1st birthday party....The Hungry Caterpillar theme. I will be going overboard of course but oh well.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Week 5/6 Update

Week 4/5 Update

How far along?: 5 Weeks 1 Days or 5 Weeks 6 days


Maternity clothes: Nope but I have won a few things on Ebay so I'm pretty excited to be a little more stylish this time around haha


Sleep: Having a 9.5 month old who loves to co-sleep doesn't warrant the best sleep because I've been trying to let her cry it out for a bit and wean her of that. This has nothing to do with being pregnant though haha

Best moment this week: Getting through another week

Movement: None


Food cravings: None so far


Food aversions: Nothing so far


Gender: Won't know that for awhile.


Labor signs: None for a long long time please!


Belly button in or out?: Innie


What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses. (This will probably stay because I have barely drank as it is with BF'ing so that isn't that big of a deal)


What I am looking forward to: September 16th when we can see our little one.


Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.


Milestones: Another week closer to seeing our baby!


Weight: 161.4 (Last week should've been more like 161 instead of 160)

Thursday, August 25, 2011

The Guilt

So I have started asking around to folks who have 2 under 2 or roughly around that time frame and ask if they have guilt over having a second child so quickly because let me tell you...2.5 seconds after I got over the shock and became happy I immediately felt sadness and guilt in my heart for Ava. She has been getting my attention sometimes literally 24/7 and don't get me wrong I always wanted to provide her with a brother or sister but so soon??? Will she feel sad like the dog? Will I not be able to love her as much, or stop and smile at her then she reciprocates, will I not be able to get down on the floor and play with her, or her watch me play a game. Will we not have that moment to touch noses and gaze into each other's eyes and right before she turns away she gives me that sly smile like "I really love you with everything mommy"....le sigh I know this guilt will pass but I worry about it.

Someone said "your love doesn't divide it multiplies" and I know it will. I am excited to give her a brother or sister because I think she'll be a wonderful big sister.

So I have decided which I should've been doing the whole time (but in my defense was so busy all these months at work and had my own app for a baby journal for Ava) but I'm going to do a weekly update of Ava on a different day so I can continue to mark her progress as well.

Of course Mr. B says we should spend the same amount on baby furniture as we did Ava and while I'm not against it geez that was 2k. It is fantastic quality though.

We did get a flier in the mail from BRU yesterday that if you bought a set on some you got the crib for free or a really nice chair/glider and ottoman for free. The price range for the free product was about 500 dollars which is nice. They now offer layaway which is great because same with the other place we wanted to pick it out and start saving but didn't have room for it until we cleared out the room.

I haven't come up with a nickname for this little one yet but that currently is our guest room so we'll have to get rid of all of that stuff and that closet was our storage closet with suite cases and all...oh boy.

I'm going to be going through a bunch of our clothes in our closet and will actually put the desk in there I think since the desk is small and we don't use it that much.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Week 4/5 Update

Yes you read that right...I'm pregnant!

Week 4/5 Update

How far along?: 4 Weeks 2 Days or 5 Weeks


Maternity clothes: Nope


Sleep: Having a 9.5 month old who loves to co-sleep doesn't warrant the best sleep because I've been trying to let her cry it out for a bit and wean her of that. This has nothing to do with being pregnant though haha

Best moment this week: Finding out I was pregnant!

Movement: None


Food cravings: None so far


Food aversions: Nothing so far


Gender: Won't know that for awhile.


Labor signs: None for a long long time please!


Belly button in or out?: Innie


What I miss: I'll miss eating my steak at medium rare and having to heat up deli meats, and watching cheeses.


What I am looking forward to: September 16th when we can see our little one.


Weekly Wisdom: I haven't gotten any yet since I really haven't told anyone. But you better believe I'll be asking about the 2 under 18 months folks.


Milestones: BFP!


Weight: 160

Is everyone as shocked as I am to see this?! Based on my LMP my due date actually would be April 24th and that would put me at 5 weeks today however I'm pretty sure I ovulated late and I'm going with April 24th and then I'd be 4w2d. This is surreal.

Just like with Ava I randomly said hmm have I gotten a period (last month was my first real one) so I had a tiny bit of bleeding around the 4 week mark if you use my LMP which was like Ava so I assume it was implantation bleeding. So I took a test on a whim. I am shocked.

The whole 2 under 2 thing is crazy but Ava will be 17.5 months if I go full term. Which I have just started reading about VBAC's and it seems they don't recommend a VBAC if between the 1st section and 2nd would be less than 18 months. So I'll have to chat with my doctor about that. I know many states are regulating when doctors can schedule sections and only do it at 39 weeks and if it's less there's a reason for it. Which 39 weeks is fine. I went until 38w5d so what's 2 days difference.

We shall see. I am going to be telling Mr. B here in a minute...wish me luck haha

Friday, July 29, 2011

I have a heavy heart

Y'all. I'm not even going to apologize for not updating this damn thing...I have a lot of guilt for not doing so since I did such a great job going through the pregnancy and one day showing Ava this. But like I said when I updated via my phone (which is a p.i.t.a) that I have a journal on there that I update and can write in her baby book.

But let me get to why I'm blogging for all 26 of you to read (I hate my job thanks for making me go private you snoopy jerks).

I have never heard of what I'm about to write about until last week and let me tell you this has been eating at me all week long.

There is this amazingly beautiful boy named Tripp. He lives about 45 minutes from me. He is a little over 2 and has EB. It's a rare genetic skin disease that causes blisters by the slightest friction and open wounds.

The doctors estimated he would be gone from this world at one. He turned two on May 14th. He is getting bad everyone. Some kids have survived and manage and today on one of the prayer facebook pages a lady posted a picture of her best friend who had it as bad as Tripp and now she's grown and you can't tell (but she's a miracle). Some children have had a bone marrow transplant and gotten better but some have passed...it's very invasive since they have to give chemo first.

These pictures are devastating to me. I cry every.single.day.

Let me tell you I don't expect folks to feel the way I do...everyone is sad when they read the blog and hear stories and see pictures of this sweet little man but honestly my heart has been aching these past two days like the first few days I dropped Ava at daycare.

I have never met this angel, nor his wonderful strong mother Courtney, never talked to them on the phone or anything but I feel connected to him for some reason.

I want to do my part and will be thinking about how to get more involved.

Due to the stress of this terrible thing Courtney and her husband have split and the divorce was this month. I can only imagine the stress and pain they were under.

She now lives with her amazing supportive parents and from what I gather at least Tripp's grandma (his dad's mother) comes over a lot. I would hope that Tripp's father does but since Courtney is not only an amazing mother she's the epitomy of class and has not talked about it other then just to say we're divorcing and that's all we need to know.

Many folks have been having prayer vigils, candlightings, and have had some run's and what not. I think the 20th they're putting together a community event that Mr. B, Ava, and I will definitely be making the drive for.

I know Tripp won't be there well because that would just do so much damage to him but maybe Courtney will. And if she's not who cares...she's taking care of that baby boy.

I pray multiple times a day for him and his family and even pray with Ava and y'all she stops whatever she's doing and listens so intently when I do...any other time when I talk to her she's like "phhhhugh lady I'm doing my own thing".

So here's the link to Courtney's blog. http://randycourtneytripproth.blogspot.com/ (It won't let me insert a link all fancy like it normally does)
If you feel compelled to donate to help out because she's a saint yet again she said she'd rather us donate to Debra www.Debra.org which is an amazing company trying to find a cure and also gives tons of special supplies and guidance to families raising a child with EB.

So I donated to them yesterday but we're all still sending money to help with medical expenses. She has her address on her blog.

Little Tripp loves his tiny Elmo in one hand and Big Bird in the other...I think by now he's blind (this just happened recently) because the tissue has fused together. :( And even though he can't see it I'm finding a special card that has them on it.

I need to get involved...I just have this calling...like sometimes in life there is something that just happens and you feel compelled to do?! I don't know it's strange. But I think about them every waking minute.

I just have to get this out because I have been depressed and heartbroken since reading her blog last week. I know everything happens for a reason, bad things happen to good people, but this sweet angel does not deserve to be in the pain he's in. So I'm praying for a miracle to at least heal him 50%.

Thanks for taking the time to read all of this.

We love you Tripp! Always thinking about you.

Wear red ribbons in honor of EB and hoping to finding a cure!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

I suck

Y'all I really suck at keeping this u date and I'm truly angry about it since I did such a good job while pregnant with Ava. This is something she could've had. I do have an app thats a baby journal that I update a lot so at least I can update her baby book.

I can not believe Ava will be 8 months on monday. Y'all I feel really sad about this. This means I need to start thinking of bday idea's. I've been saving ideas from Pinterest. Love that place!

She sprouted her first tooth a little over a week ago and a couple days ago her second popped...well we can feel it good now.
She's so close to crawling that scares me!

Sleeping well we'll talk about that on a different day haha

She "talks and sings aling to the radio"

She loves avocado's, and apples. I love making my own food for her. She's ok with carrots. Likes blueberries. Doesn't care for brown rice cereal and no longer likes sweet potatoes.

She doesn't eat much of it which is fine by me.

I love her so much and still cry some days when I leave her :(

Well that's enough for now. I'm going to try and blog twice a week starting in July.

And if there are any mistakes I'm sorry. I'm typing from my phone

Friday, May 27, 2011

Crazy Dream

Ok so for those of you who know me I have always said I have a strong feeling I'll have twins and think that it would be wonderful the next go round to have that happen and be done since that would definitely be it in Mr. B's mind haha

My father is adopted so I have no idea about his family other than I know for sure his mother had a girl first and then him but don't know if twins ran in her family or my biological grand father.

My father had 3 girls and a boy so who knows and I'm not sure if there are twins floating around on Mr. B's side or not but from what I grasped it's the woman that carries that or something...anyways yah

So last night I had a very very vivid dream that I remember to a T!

We were pregnant (don't know when and this was after we found out because we were getting our 8 week Ultrasound).

And there were two sacs....but both babies were in Sac A (this part is not true but the U/S Tech said that one sac is the mother's and one is the father's and whichever baby is in which will carry more features/personality traits of that parent)...and both were in Mr. B's. (but again we know that part isn't true) The part that can be true is two babies sharing one sac which generally not always means Identicals.

And this part couldn't happen at 8 weeks but she said both were BOYS!

Ok so I know I'm reading into this and I take some things with a grain of salt but I have a strange feeling this is all in connection to the reading even though she didn't mention twins and gave different months but just a little strange since I have NOT been thinking twins these past couple of weeks.

We'll see

Friday, May 20, 2011

The Baby Psychic Reading

Ok so I finally got my reading back from Cheri22 and here is what she said...

Ava Grace born on 11/4/2010
When it comes to your daughter they show her as someone who is always on task. Will always able to remain right where you need her. (This is totally my personality right here) I am seeing you both having similar ideas, and often enjoying to do things together that pique your interest.

Shes someone who is very mellow easy to get along with and is more than happy to just go along with the flow. (This was proven this past weekend where she sat and people watched for hours while everyone said "What a good baby") I do see her holding back a bit around new people and people that she does not know that well. A bit more quiet than she normally would be and would tend to not really offer much information about herself. (Already this is true. With Mr. B and I she talks a ton and she will around folks but it takes time..otherwise she's happy to sit and watch and smile) She does overall tends to be a bit more of a private person anyways so not really wanting to get involved in things like that.

When it comes to your daughter, she loves things that are requiring focus and attention. They show her loving gymnastics and being really good on the balance beam. (I am excited about this)
Shes always very much a girly girl and loves to interact with anything that really allows her "inner beauty queen" to come out. Always asking to play in your makeup, always wanting to wear tons of jewelry, always asking to have dress up clothes, barbies, dolls..etc. She can often convince her brothers to play tea party as long as she allows them to be dragons. (This will be interesting haha)

When it comes to career paths, they show her linked as a makeup artist. (I will be really interested to see if this happens)

When it comes to marriage I am seeing her closer to 26. They will have one girl and one boy of their own.



BOY - JUNE so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
When it comes to your son, things for him is always about "seeing is believing" he would much rather see everything with his own two eyes rather than someone just trying to explain something to him. Hes polite and friendly, very attractive at any age, and someone who is very confident in who he is as a person. Always wanting to be able to have the chance to learn and gets frustrated when someone wont allow him that opportunity. You will find that someone will think that they are doing your son a favor by trying to explain something to him, giving him as much detail as they possibly can, and trust me your son totally gets it, but he wants to see it for himself. Always wondering how the world works and would rather see it for himself.

He loves soccer, both to watch and to play and is often one of the faster kids on his team. Hes not always the best at scoring, but he has fun and he tries his best.

Hes always good with pushing for things to be done. Can be someone who is very much the type to lead people to the right direction, giving them the motivation to continue forward. always full of ideas, so if your ever stuck on something just give him the information and he can usually be fairly creative and provide you with the information you need to continue to move forward.

When it comes to career paths, they show your son linked to working in a sales field. being able to travel a bit with meeting with current clients. I get the impression that this is a "service" that they provide rather than him selling a product. (He would be a lot like Mr. B in that respect)

When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 25. They will have one girl and one boy of their own.


BOY - August so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in
When it comes to your son, hes someone who is always going to be very physical. Always having a bit more of a stocky body style and always really interested in playing sports that are a bit more physical. Likes things like rugby, and football.. things that allow a bit more contact and more of a physical play.

Hes a bit more on the quiet side. Not really interested in sharing his feelings. He will tell you what he is thinking or how he is feeling based on trying to be very good with just stating the facts and always thinks that its obvious to everyone. You will find in school is often the one that really does not like it. Hes always going to be social but does not want to be stuck learning things that he finds to be useless. Sometimes just needs that gentle little push in finding things that make him excited about it. In high school is able to join the various teams (including wrestling) and to be able to remain on the team, he has to have good grades.

He loves anything that is linked to science and discovery and will always be interested in things like that when he is younger. You will find that he is always very observant, always getting right down to the ground to take a look at a grasshopper that someone just found.. or perhaps a worm.. Hes always good about just leaving things where he sees them rather than picking them up and moving them. When it comes to career paths, they show him working in law. I do see him having to goto court, and is usually defending someone. (Everything even sports sounds just like Mr. B...so Ava must be like me, and the "third child" will be like Mr. B...I guess the "2nd child" will be a mix)


When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 28. They will have one girl and one boy fo their own.


Very interesting!!!

So what's crazy is that potentially (and of course this is all in believing this stuff however her results are pretty spot on for the most part) I could potentially get pregnant the rest of this month and find out next month, or get pregnant next month, or it could be August, or for a June birth September, or for an August birth November...which is when for sure we said we'd probably really start trying.

I didn't ask her if the sequence was a for sure as far as if the June one came first or she just saw a June and she thinks its the next one but could be number 3.

I'm also interested to see if it will be two boys because in my family all the women go girl, boy, girl, boy etc.

Only the men have boys first.

None the less this is pretty cool and I wish I would've paid the extra few bucks to get the whole family stuff done.

oh well

Monday, May 2, 2011

I suck

At updating...truly I do.

I've been trying to stay as busy at work as possible so it will seem a little less painful but that usually doesn't do the trick.

I am searching a ton for a new job and have found a possibility but still not sure Mr. B will go for it.

If I get an interview I'll let you know more about it.

Anyways La Rue she's just blossoming into this grown child already. I get so sad to think that on Wednesday she'll already be 6 months old. Time does need to slow a little.

She can sit a little by herself now and we just got her tray for her Bumbo and let her test out banana's for the first time in the meshy thing. I don't think they were fully ripe because she would make a funny face haha....brown rice cereal was a no go as well as green beans.

So I said I was going to throw the ol "don't do fruit first" thing out the window...whatever works.
So we'll try nanners for a few more days and introduce Avacodo and/or Sweet Potato.

Some of you know I have gone back and forth on the earring debate...I just wish my pediatricians office did it earlier than 6 months and I don't think I would've felt so bad...for some reason I just think she'll feel the pain more now than she would've at 3 months...that's silly I'm sure and normally she's great with pain like me....so I am now leaning towards getting them down but we'll see what happens on Friday haha

I need to get Ava some balloons for her 6 month birthday on Wednesday. She's flirting like crazy and just smiles at everyone.

The sleeping thing yah it sucks. I know now she's used to it but what can I do? I need sleep too. So I've been doing my best to keep putting her back in but once midnight-1 rolls around I have to give in to function the next day.

I'm trying everything possible. I wish I had enough vacation to take a couple of days to hang with her and get her going.

Mr. B is applying for a new job and if he gets it eventually we'd have to move closer to where we used to live...part of me would like that being close to some friends and part of me really likes being where we're at as far as being kind of far away and it's quiet. I would for sure miss being closer to LSU and the bigger town because we'd still have to drive 25 minutes into New Orleans.
Houses are so much more and so is electricity because it's a different company.

We'll see though

I'm off to do some real work...soon I'll post some pictures

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

My little girl...

isn't so little anymore :( She rolled over at daycare yesterday. I am devestated I won't lie. We had been working with her quite a bit lately trying to get her to do it and having my iphone handy for video recording just in case. About a week ago I gave the go ahead of more tummy time at daycare (wanted to make sure she was strong enough if they couldn't keep an eye on her like I like in case they got busy with the other babies). When I came in and saw the note yesterday I started to well up. I made it to the car to call Mr. B and then cried :( Mr. B knew what I was getting at AGAIN without having to say anything at all. He didn't quite believe Ms Beth but this morning she confirmed that she was on her tummy in her crib and had her head really up high and kind of started bobbing and then BLOOP! Turned over and her eyes got real big like wtf just happened?! haha I called Mr. B on the way to work to confirm and he said "well when she does it at home it'll bet he first time for us and I'm sure there will be plenty of firsts that we get to see that Ms. Beth doesn't" ummm dude we ARE supposed to see first. I'm sure Ms. Beth likes to see them but she doesn't care that much about our child haha And I know it happened so it won't be a first and she said she didn't have to let me know if I didn't want her to and another friend of mine who worked at a daycare said the same thing and I said NOWAY...that's cheating Ava. I am not a one upper as far as milestones because all babies develop differently and even though we wanted her to roll over it wasn't this huge deal to us and reading that others hadn't yet made me fine with it. But BUT if she does I WANT to know to celebrate with her and be proud of her! If she doesn't do it for another 2-3 weeks at home that'll be fine but I wouldn't have wanted to think she did it just then when she's doing it at daycare because even though she doesn't know it I'm not going to take that away from her no matter how sad I get. So with all of this I'm really starting to think my hair falling out is stress/anxiety related now. It may have started with the stuff I listed but it's been over a month and nothing is giving. And even though I'm not depressed (except for not spending more time with Ava) I maybe a little anxious about it (although I'm not going to get on medication...one I'm breast feeding and two I don't think I NEED NEED it...and I would admit if I did) and the stress of my shitty job and stress over leaving her. I've been carrying around a 15lb bag of guilt ....and by the way now up to 16lbs folks haha so of course I was going to talk to my obgyn about it anyways but I'm going to ask what she thinks. Not that, that would change Mr. B's mind...but you never know. All I know is after I found out the way my new supervisor talked to another co-worker that does my job in another city she would have had to fill one more position on Saturday had it been me on that other end of the line because I wouldn't have been treated that way. These people here are out the box and really better watch themselves because I can tell you it won't take a lot to push me over the edge and be gone. I am looking looking but can't find anything closer to the daycare/home/at least the area let alone see what it'll pay. But I WILL NOT give up on my ultimate goal....noway jose

Monday, March 28, 2011

Gymboree Fun and Learn

or whatever it's called. I signed up for Ava and I to got his coming Saturday since Mr. B will be golfing. I figured that was something fun that could get us out of the house and something great for Ava. Has anyone done it yet? I saw how they say they allocate time to have parent discussion or something and honestly I am social I promise you but not in that kind of forced on setting. My idea of fun and learning about my baby isn't with some uppity upscale women (which where this place is located will definitely have those) I mean I'm already worried about what I should wear and having to blow dry and flat iron my hair haha. So can anyone tell me if you have to stay for that? If it was well worth it? Was it awkward? Or am I over analyzing? I tell you I like not getting a period but at the same time don't because I have no idea if I could possibly be pregnant. I was having cramps but not AF cramps, boobs were hurting off and on but I BF so I'm not even thinking of that one. Peeing more than normal but I'm drinking more water for BF'ing but until a couple of days ago I haven't pee'd as much as recently. And I'm like whatever it is what it is but today I started to feel not so good when I hadn't eaten my breakfast yet and then it didn't go away...it felt like MS not the flu. It kind of lingered and went away this afternoon and I just ate some cake and immediately could've gotten sick if I were in the bathroom but just relaxed myself. But I could just be getting a bug. I did test at lunch and it was negative although not sure 1. not morning pee and 2. maybe too soon or 3. not pregs haha So this is when getting a period would be a little more helpful because I'm just going off of a date of conception. Maybe I'm psycho somatic and thinking of symptoms....oh well But what I do know is if I'm not then I'm going to be seriously job hunting. I can't stand this place any longer. They don't treat us right and especially how another one of me was treated this weekend it's ridiculous. My dilemma is there are jobs to be had however I need something closer to the town we live in at least not further away and I won't budge on that. I sent my resume to a part time legit work from home and I did get an email saying they got it but who knows if I'll hear back or not. If I got pregnant now or in a month I would stick it out until a couple of weeks before the birth most likely but if not then I don't want to and I really really would love a p/t stay at home gig that makes up the difference of what I make vs paying for daycare now. We'll see but please be sending those vibes out.